Lately, some drama has been going down. I've been thinking a lot.
We've been best friends since kindergarten. We've gone through hell and back twice.
You've been there through all the shit I've been through. I was there through all the shit you've been through.
But recently, we've been strained. Shit's hit the fan.
We're fighting. Things are being said.
Things we may not mean. But I can't tell if you actually still want to be in my life.
Or if you just don't want to hurt me.
But the truth is.
What's been going on lately has been causing me so much more pain, than I would be feeling if we just went our separate ways.
I hate how things are. I hate that we're at odds.
I hate this feeling. I don't want to be constantly fighting with you.
I don't want to be constantly worrying that you're talking about me behind my back while telling me that we're good.
I don't want to worry that whenever I do something on social media that your boyfriend is going to attack me.
We weren't like this before him. We were good.
Everything was fine. Yes, we've had a falling out before.
But this doesn't feel like that. It feels like he's coming in the way of our friendship.
It feels like he's making you choose between him and me. In the end, I know you'll choose him.
I can't tell if this is just life throwing in obstacles at our friendship, or if it's time to call it quits.
I don't want to call an end to our friendship. But if this keeps continuing, I don't know if I can keep going.
I love you, more than anything.
But maybe right now just isn't our time. Maybe we need to find our ways back to each other.