I love writing. I write so much that I have at least four notebooks with all of their pages filled with writing; each notebook even has pages or pieces of paper torn from other sources, and we cannot forget about the multitude of files I have saved on my laptop. Anytime I am confused about something in my life, I end up writing down whatever comes into my head — my emotions, perceptions, wishes, fears — and soon enough it all starts to make some sense. Which, to me, is kind of funny because people usually say you should write about what you know.

Anyway I love writing, but sometimes it is almost impossible to even get a word out because there are so many things charged in my brain. When I sit down to write, it’s similar to trying to catch a fly without squishing it in your hand or letting it slip between your fingertips. I’m scatter-brained, but I think that’s because I haven’t been writing lately so I’m all plugged up just ready to explode which is making my writer’s block all too real. I have no idea how to get around it because what worked last time won’t necessarily work now or in the future. Some things I have tried in past include walking away from whatever I was writing so I can forget about all of the thoughts raging, trying to get out all at the same time; however, sometimes when I do this nothing changes upon my return. Taking a nap or sleeping on it over night sometimes helps slightly more because my brain has had more time to process everything and let the thoughts settle. Making a (stiff) drink sometimes helps loosen my thoughts and quiets everything else flinging around in my mind, but I have to be careful not to make one too many or else my efforts will have been counterproductive. Going for a walk rarely helps me just because when I go for walks that is my time to think about everything, what meetings I have, homework, family, and everything I haven’t prepared for yet that I really should have started last week. This next one is a hit or miss, 50/50 kind of thing. Every once and a while, if I just write — literally anything and everything that comes into my head — then I can clear my mind enough to see what I actually want to try to communicate. Sometimes (more often than not) I look elsewhere for some “inspiration” which is very beneficial to my writing process most of the time, unless I get too distracted by what I want to eat; it’s rather difficult for me to eat and write at the same. Each of those activities requires my full attention, separately.

So as I said, I am a scatter-brain, scramble-brained, disorganized whatever you would like to call it… Muddle-minded. I am challenged by writer’s block quite often, but the fact that I have yet to find one solid way to conquer it is frustrating. I’ll just have to keep looking; I might need some inspiration for that.