I wish my parents truly knew the real me. I wish they knew how hard I work. I wish they knew that all I want to do is win their approval. I wish they knew that I struggle every day. I wish they knew that I'm not the happy person they think I am. I wish they knew I struggle with self-image and self-worth every day.
I wish my parents knew about the late nights of studying and crying because I can't understand a class. I wish my parents knew that I make myself sick over bad grades. I wish my parents knew that I do everything I can to succeed but some times it's not enough. I wish my parents knew that I'm not as smart as they give me credit for. I wish my parents knew I am lazy and that I sleep in on the weekends because that's all the sleep I'll get for a week. I wish my parents knew of all the plans I had to say no to so I can study. I wish my parents saw how much I really do work.
I wish my parents knew that I struggle with my self-image. I wish they knew that I feel like I am not good enough. I wish my parents knew that I can't look in a mirror. I wish they knew that I try to better myself but get frustrated. I wish they knew that I drive myself to mental breakdowns because I can't live up to expectations. I wish my parents knew I have a hard time trusting people. I wish my parents knew I hate asking for help. I wish they knew how fragile I really am. I wish they knew that words rattle around in my head for a long time. I wish they knew that some days I struggle to just get out of bed but I push myself through a day anyway. I wish my parents knew how alone I feel.
I wish my parents knew that everything I do is to win their approval and make them proud of me. I wish my parents knew that I feel like a disappointment. I wish they knew that I don't tell them things because I don't want them to be disappointed in me.I wish they knew that even though they don't mean it, they make me feel as if I am not good enough.
I wish my parents realized that my GPA does not define me, neither does my weight. I wish my parents realized that my faith is important to me. I wish my parents knew I love to sing. I wish my parents knew that I love silly things like Broadway and Disney. I wish my parents knew my child like manner keeps me optimistic. I wish my parents knew that I just want to make a difference in the world.
I wish my parents knew.