Improving myself these past three months is all that's been on my mind. High school is rough, trust me when I say that I understand. If there were a senior superlative for "Most Negative," I definitely would've won. Some spend most days wishing a giant sinkhole would come and swallow them so they don't have to step foot in those halls for one more day. I was one of those students. As a recently graduated senior I promise you dreading every minute you're in those concrete walls only makes it worse.
High school is a learning experience, the people who you surround yourself with can greatly affect that. I dated the older boy because he told me he cared, but really he just wanted to use my body for some practice.You'll lose your best friends in a frenzy to fit in. Bringing home your shitty grades to your parents after every semester, fighting with them every night, and eventually you're just becoming someone that lives in their house. You lose yourself. Making mistakes is a part of growing up, which is something I've always struggled with. "Good things can come out of failures too," this is my new mantra for my life. I made a multitude of mistakes throughout my high school career, but without these mistakes I wouldn't be able to look back and know what I want for myself in University.
My advice is get involved as much as you can in high school, join the writing club, the fishing club, try out for the water polo team, or even the anime club if you just want to see what it's all about. Meet all the people there is to meet. At the end of the day no one is going to care if you went to that party or if you hangout with the popular crowd. I can tell you that you will care what your GPA looks like, how you did on your SATs and ACT, the people that you met and the friends that you made, and the relationship you have with your family. I'm not saying don't go to that party or don't be friends with certain people, or even that you do have to try every club or sport, I'm just saying put yourself out there to experience new things. Be open to every opportunity and don't succumb to the negativity like I did. People are right when they say this is one of the easiest times in your life, and in the grand scheme of things, worrying about high school isn't nearly as bad as worrying about money, mortgages, bosses and coworkers that you get to experience when adult life kicks in. Soon enough you'll all be walking across that stage to get your diploma and all you'll be thinking is "Holy crap its over, holy crap I miss my math teacher, and my best friends, I'm even going to miss that anxiety causing cafeteria." You're going to have bad days, bad weeks, and probably fail a couple AP Biology tests. Not letting those bad days overcloud your entire high school experience is what matters. Allow yourself to fail a few times but fail while trying, don't allow yourself to fail sitting on the sidelines.
