My nanny is someone who has always been in my life, and has been there for me when no one else was. She raised me for a huge chunk of my life, and I can’t even begin to explain how grateful I am to her. She helped shape a huge part of my character, and I wouldn’t be who I am if she had not been in my life. Up until I was 10 I had lived with her, and she showered me with as much affection as any kid could ask for. When I left it hurt, even though I was doing the right thing. However, we didn’t stay away from each other for too long. She had moved back to Texas before I knew it, and we were reunited again.
I loved having my nanny live down the street from me, because I was there so much. All I had to do was walk to her house when I wanted to see her. I was always welcome there. Once we moved into town though, my nanny moved in with us. So it is pretty awesome getting to see her everyday (when I am home). My nanny is such a huge support system, and whenever I need advice or guidance, I know she is always there to offer some. She always listens to me when I need to vent, and she always offers her shoulder for me to cry on.
Not too long ago she was diagnosed with dementia, and it was pretty scary for me. I didn’t exactly take it so well, and I tended to brush it off, ignore it, and pretend she hadn’t been diagnosed with it. At times I still like to pretend that. Though I know that no matter how much I pretend, it doesn’t take away that it is actually happening. It is definitely hard for me to wrap around, and so I try to tell my nanny I love her as much as I can. I always get scared that she may not remember who I am anymore, and if that happens, I won’t be mad. Instead I’ll keep putting my faith in the Lord, because that is what she taught me. My nanny taught me to be a strong, Christian woman. And although I lack in that area sometimes, I know that she has taught me well.
Which is why I am writing this article right now. If there comes a day where she does not remember me, maybe she can give this article a read. It may not be much help, but she’ll see that she has a granddaughter who loves her more than anything. She will see that maybe raising me wasn’t such a bad idea after all, even though I was a spoiled, rotten, brat! No matter what happens, I will love my nanny far more than she will ever love me (our inside joke). I will always appreciate all that she has ever done for me.
So I just want to say, I love you very much Nanny. Thank you for always being there, I appreciate you more than you know.
