Gaining weight is a controversial subject in a world obsessed with losing weight. But I want to gain weight.
I am 20 years old, 5' even, and I weigh 104-108 pounds every week since I was 17. I want to gain weight because I feel unhealthy, my weight fluctuates to the point where I have no idea what is going to be on the scale when I weigh myself, and I am teetering on the unhealthy weight line. This is a personal choice. I am writing this article to state that me being skinny has nothing to with me being healthy.
Many people in my life have told me to not talk about my weight as if it is a bad thing. They tell me to be grateful that I am skinny and I am grateful. But I am also unhealthy. There is a lot I could be doing to be healthier, and one of those things might be to gain weight. I am in pain a lot, my lungs suck, I can't lift more than 30 pounds without struggling. I want these things to change, and the starting point is to put on some pounds.
I have struggled with my weight since I was a child. I have always been small, with a fast metabolism I cannot seem to keep a pound. I weighed 96 pounds from when I was 14 to when I was almost 18. Donating blood is on my bucket list because I have never weighed more than 110 pounds. I have my personal reasons to gain weight that have nothing to do with what society tells me I have to look like.
I have never been anorexic or bulimic. But I have had a lot of people ask me if I was because I am so small. I am not ashamed of my skinny body, but I know that it is unhealthy for me, and I want to change that. It is almost impossible for me to gain weight, and very easy for me to lose it. I am a risk for many health complications when I'm older, such as heart problems, the risk of anemia, and if I want to be a mother, birth complications.
My health is always my business and making it other people's buisness is often a battle. Many of you might be rolling your eyes at me, saying that I shouldnt worrry about my weight if I'm skinny. But I'm unhealthy, and skinny or not, I need to change that.
