I am organized. I am efficient. I work like clock work. And yes, sometimes i can be a control freak.
I plan everything out so perfectly and know that everything will work out as plans if so and so only does this. Sometimes it can be hard to accept that certain things are out of our control. I may be an extremely organized and efficient person, but i am also incredibly caring. At times i go so far as to feel emotions for other people when i am not even involved in the situation. This can make it difficult to let things go.
In many past relationships i have wanted to hold on. To stay in touch, and keep up with them on how they are doing. It is not good for me personally. I care more about how the other person involved is doing and being there for them, than i do for myself in the situation. I want to be able to piece peoples lives back together and to literally turn their frown upside down. Recently, however, i have learned that my control only reaches so far. I cannot put myself in situations that are hurtful to me, in order to be there for someone who does not care about me.
It can be hard letting go. To realize that the situation is indeed out of your control. So often in our minds and hearts we play the game, what if? What if i said this? What if i proved that i loved them by buying them gifts and answering their calls and texts even after the way that they hurt and used me. There are endless what ifs... but the answer is usually the same.
Everything does happen for a reason. If someone did hurt you and leave you chances are that it was not because you did not answer your phone that one time. The hardest part about letting go of a situation is realizing that you truly do not have the power to change it. That in life many things are out of our control. There have been so many situations in which i believed that as long as i said the right thing i could fix everything and get it to work out the way that i want.
The truth of the matter is though that, that is never true. True feelings are not changed by a few fancy words. If someone was ready to leave you behind in their life then you should let them. Because the fact of the matter is that they are not the person that you thought they were. No matter what they may have said at one time you need to listen to the words that they say to you now. The past is in the past for a reason. Do not go digging it back up because a ghost resurfaced through a phone call.
Accept that what people say and do are out of your control. Freely let negative people leave your life and do not beat yourself up over the fact that you cannot fix them. Let the past be the past, learn from your past but never let yourself repeat it.
