I wish I could say that I look back at our time fondly. I wish I could say that my memories of us were filled with happiness and rainbows.

Unfortunately, that's only a small portion of what was us.

Loving you was one of the most painful things I've ever been through.

I let you walk all over me in the hope that you'd somehow love me too. I begged, pleaded, cajoled, cried for you to love me too. I held my breath, counted my lucky stars, made my wish every single night that you might someday return those feelings.

You said you did and you asked me out. Eventually, you decided that you didn't feel that way and you left me. I don't blame you for not feeling that way. I'm sad that I was dragged through a million rings of hell while you tried to figure it out.

Part of it was my fault; I kept letting you do it. I kept letting you be indecisive. When you said you might feel that way again, I fell for it. After another time, I should have known better, but I didn't. Every bit of common sense and street smarts that I had, flew out the window when it came to you even if it meant getting hurt again. I didn't care as long as it meant one more hug or one more kiss. I just wanted to be with you.

I don't blame you for my pain. I don't blame you for the hurt. I just wish you had made up your mind sooner. I wish you knew ahead of time. I wish you had the ability to know that no, you didn't love me, before you continuously let me down trying to figure it out. Before you continuously fed me hope and then swept the rug out from under me.

A part of me will always love you. You always love your first love. I now know that I'm better without you though. I know I'm better than what you were willing to give me. I hope you never put another woman through what you did with me.

I hope you've grown up and learned about yourself. I hope you've connected with your feelings and found someone that you do love.

Just do me a favor and treat her well. Don't take her for granted like you did with me. She'll leave like I did.

I was wrong when I said nobody will ever love you like I will. She will. What I didn't realize is everyone will love me better than you ever could.