You know those days where you might not be feeling entirely like yourself, maybe you're sick, you have empty time for once to stop and think and so your mind is overflowing with thoughts, and you start to think I want to be a better person or I want to make a change? Tell me, how could you do such a thing without realizing one of the requirements of doing so?

To better yourself you have to learn from your mistakes.

And to learn from your mistakes, you have to make mistakes.

After a few days of being slumped up in the house with a head cold, I’ve come to some realizations about my own attitude and feelings lately. That’s not how I want to be. Don’t be grumpy just because you’re not feeling up to par. Be better not bitter. If I'm not happy with something, I'm in charge of making those changes. With those thoughts, I need to let myself grow. I need to change what it is I don’t like, not dwell on it. I could spend a day upset, making remarks at myself for not doing something differently, or I can take that situation and turn it around for the future. So please, I want you to make mistakes. Don’t get so lost in beating yourself up over every individual wrongdoing. Learn from it and move forward. We are human.

I’m cutting the string that doesn’t allow natural human faults without mindful punishment.

I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to build my world around the worry of pleasing everyone. I’ve wasted hours lost in foolish overthinking. Such an attempt would be a constant run in circles wondering why I’m never finding that finish line — because it doesn’t exist. Stand your ground and build for yourself. I don’t need to “be better” for anyone who doesn’t love me for who I am entirely, I only need to be better for myself and benefit those who are important to me; so that one day I can tell my kids how I’ve grown as a person and I can guide them on how to let themselves grow without the string of fear and judgment tying them to the ground.

I’m cutting the tense string that requires me to worry about pleasing everyone.

Sometimes I think I’m ridiculous for having a breakdown, especially to someone who wasn’t expecting it, but I can tell you that it is never “ridiculous.” It’s okay to feel overwhelmed but it’s even more okay to let it out. You aren’t weak for allowing your feelings to spill out. You’re healthy for doing so. We keep thoughts and feelings so bottled up to the point that our mind and heart reach capacity and we don’t know where to take ourselves next because we aren’t even sure what more we can take. Let. it. out. You’re not alone, so talk. Stop drowning yourself in thought and let someone know what’s on your mind. Float back to the surface. Allow yourself that release.

I’m cutting the string that vibrates viciously as I fear the judgment when I feel a need to release my emotions.

I’m going to be better every day because…

I’m going to make mistakes and allow myself to do so.

I’m going to learn from them.

I’m going to be myself and not worry about unpleasing one person.

I’m going to pour my emotions into the lap of someone who cares to listen without even considering judgment, and I'll shove it into my workouts as I strengthen my body and mindset.

That’s healthy, and that’s me.

Today, I’m cutting the strings.