Disclaimer: This article was not written to tell anyone the "right" or "wrong" way to live. Each person has their own dreams and goals in life, so whether you want to be a stay at home mom or a CEO I support you, and I hope your dreams come true.
Growing up, I went to all of my mom's nanny-ing job — even before I was physically born. I was born and raised around kids constantly. And as an only child, that was nice.
It was as if I had a bunch of different siblings; at first, a bunch of older ones, and eventually, some younger. I always loved having someone to play with and grow up with.
It also instilled in me a way to discipline kids. I was disciplined when I misbehaved, I watched the kids my mom watched be disciplined; I learned that discipline isn't always a bad thing.
There's a line between too much and not enough, and I personally think how I grew up and was raised was just enough of each. As it says in Proverbs 13:24, "Whoever spares the rod hates his son, but he who loves him is diligent to discipline him."
I grew up with a mom who was a nanny and many, many "siblings" who came and went. As we moved on from that chapter in our lives, I always stayed very close with children.
I was constantly babysitting and volunteering at every Vacation Bible School I could when I was finally old enough. Children have always had a big part of my life, and I personally think that God has put that all in my life to prepare me for the calling He has on my life.
I suspected a few years ago that God was calling me to do something with kids, but I didn't know what exactly. I always wanted to be a first-grade teacher when I was younger, and then as I reached eighth grade I thought I'd be better there.
Then, in high school, I didn't want to be a teacher anymore, but I thought if I was going to work with any grade, it would be high school level. I thought maybe I'd become a youth leader one day down the road if that's where God is leading me.
Through the children I've grown up with, the children I lead in VBS and those younger than me in youth group, I see how God is shaping me to one day be a mother. I've never been the kind of person who wanted to be a doctor or a lawyer or in an office all day, even if all my friends did.
I always wanted to raise my own children and watch them grow. I am so thankful that God has begun to open my eyes to that and that He's given me a heart for children, teenagers and just people overall.
To all the women out there who want to run businesses, be doctors and fight the law, I applaud, and I support you. I will be cheering you on from my house. Because I do admit, I would love to have my own business as well — if I could run it from home with my kids, that is.
I can't wait to have children of my own and to raise them. I can't wait to watch them grow in Jesus and to spend every day getting to take care of them. God has given me a heart bigger than I knew what to do with, so I'm thankful He has a plan for how to use it.