Dear Old Friend,
I believed that we were at one time, the closest we could be. However, time has passed now and I don't see us as really "friends" anymore. It isn't just you nor is it just me, its a general silent agreement that we just are not the same. It kills me honestly. I don't know how you feel about it but I sometimes wonder if you even notice that we are not the same.
I am sorry if you believe we are fine, but it honestly seems that you would be fine if I never talked to you again.
I sometimes hear songs we used to sing obnoxiously in the dorm room, or in the car on the way to Sorority things and it just isn't the same. The song no longer makes me want to sing out loud with the windows down, or do another lap around campus just to finish the song before we get out and walk back to our room.
I am sorry if you feel I have hurt you.
I would never mean to intentionally hurt you. If I did hurt you I wish you would have told me. I could of fixed it. I could of made it up to you. I could of made sure we did not get this far in this silent war we have going on. I really honestly wish you would have just told me.
I'm sorry you feel the need to not hangout anymore.
We used to spend weekend nights doing dumb stuff around campus, watching movies, or dreading meets we had early on Saturday mornings. Now it seems like I never see you, and if I do its leaving our rooms in the morning or a quick pass in the hallway as I leave for class and you return. We don't even make the effort anymore. We have no reason too, our relationship is so far gone.
I guess I hope you read this, I hope you realize what I am feeling, and I hope you can forgive me for distancing myself so much, but I also hope you see what you have done in this situation too.
As this whole mess began, you began in a sense ditching me. You began replacing me with other people and making it publically known through social media #bestfriends right? Its okay though, I forgive you completely. I honestly deserved it, but I have realized that, and I also have realized that I guess I should be doing the same thing.
So I hope if we are not brought back together, you can find it within yourself to remember the good times we had, the memories we made, and the ways that we used to stay up all night studying.
Thanks for being such a big part in my life, thanks for helping me become a better me, and thanks for once being my friend.
I hope you can remember how great you are. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Never get discouraged, because you can do it. Stay strong even when it gets hard, trust me life does get hard. Keep doing you girl, I hope you do nothing but succeed in life.
Stay Groovy,
A Friend Who Has Lost You
