I'm sitting on my couch trying to make a dent in my homework pile when my roommate looks at me and says, "Have you ever heard of Jordan Lee?! She's the cutest little blogger and I'm looking at her wedding photos. They are so cute!" I shook my head and told her I had not, but maybe sometimes I would get around to looking at them. Then two minutes later, my mom sends me a message on Facebook and says, "You have to read this! Thought of you." When I opened the article, it was a story of love, hope, and the blessings that only come from belonging to Jesus. Jordan Lee was the author, and what she wrote was about the struggles she faced during her college and early adult years to not lose hope that the Lord would provide the right man for her at the right time.
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As I continued to read, she goes on to say that on days she felt like it was never going to happen and she was never going to meet the absolute love of her life, she'd pull out a pen and paper and write him a letter and tell him all about it, even though she didn't even know his name yet. The closing of the article included excerpts of the last letter she wrote as a single woman that she would then send to her groom on the day of their wedding and have him read before the ceremony. This got me feeling all kinds of inspired.
Ladies, all too often I hear some of us say things like, "I'm in college, about to graduate and I have no fiancé, much less any sort of boy of interest in my life. What am I doing wrong? What's wrong with me? Why is God making me wait, or what if God doesn't have anyone for me at all?"
STOP. Stop it right now. If you are having these thoughts, then you are letting the enemy win. Only the enemy can plant thoughts of doubt and self-worthlessness into your pretty little head. Instead of giving into the lies, step out in faith. Everything is going to change when we decide to stop looking at our futures as "If God provides", and change that statement to "When God provides." He wants to bless you. If you feel the call to marriage in your heart, begin praying now, not when you think you've found the right one.
Let the Lord prepare your heart for the love He wants to trust you with here on earth. Next, step out in faith. As I mentioned earlier, Jordan Lee writing letters to her husband before she ever knew his name...that was genius. Her words have challenged me, stirred me, and have caused me to act.
Below is a letter from me to the man I'm praying for. I hope that reading this will cause you to act in faith as well, and that the Lord would challenge you to let Him in to begin the work He wants to do.
To the boy I'm going to marry,
I thought about you today. I thought about the way your voice sounds, what color your eyes will be, and how awesome your laugh is. I am so excited for the day when I get to hear the way my own laughter is filled with the sound of yours mixed in there somewhere. I don't exactly know where you are right now, but I know you are out there somewhere, preparing for our future together, and probably just being the awesome guy I believe you to be.
Maybe you are in school, and if you are, I hope that you don't stress the way that I do. Maybe you are older than me, and you're a working man already. If you are, I'm proud of you and I pray that what you are doing career wise is something you are absolutely in love with, and that you wake up every day genuinely excited to go to work.
Above everything else that I hope for you, there are a few things I want for you way more than anything I've already said. I want to see your heart with a radiant blaze of fire for Jesus Christ, His people, and His church.
I want you to always be patient, especially with me sometimes, because you'll find out I can be a handful from time to time. I want you to be loved by many. I want to go to church with you, meet all of your friends, and hear them say how lucky I am to have been chosen by you. I want them to say that I better be good to you, because to them, you are priceless and you are their fearless leader. I eagerly await the day I meet your family.
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I can't wait to be pulled aside by your mom and experience the slight feeling of intimidation that comes along with falling in love with her baby boy, and how she will subtly let me know that her son is a treasure and that I better hold on to it, because in this world, treasures like you come few and far between.
I know in the deepest parts of my soul that you are set apart by our Lord Jesus, and that when we are brought together, that we will make much of His name and set an example of how Christ loves his church. I can't wait to hold your hand, laugh with you and sometimes at you, annoy you, and love you every day that Jesus will allow me to.
Yours forever,
The girl you're going to marry
