It has been ages since you and I have been together. You were a big part of my life for a while; you saw me at my best and my worst. We really did share some amazing times together; there were many moments when I honestly believed that it would have been me standing beside you on that special day. You and I have not spoken in quite a while, and honestly, that is probably a good thing. Having you in my life allowed me to grow, but letting you go allowed me to grow more. It is probably the same way with you.
You may not be in my life anymore, but a part of you is always a part of who I was. I don’t keep up with what is going on in your life too much, but I do know enough. When I first found out from a mutual friend that you were engaged, I wasn’t sure how to feel. It wasn’t that it hurt seeing you with someone else; you had moved on and I had too. It hurt having to hear from someone else something about someone that I used to be so close to. It has been almost four years, and I am a complete stranger in your life. I see pictures and I barely recognize what I see. It’s different.
I saw you at an event at our alma mater a couple of years ago. You came and spoke to my friends with your new girl, never even making eye contact with me. We stood there just a foot apart from each other just as we had a million times before and we were complete strangers. At another event, I planned on congratulating you on your engagement, but I never got the chance. I never got the chance to sit down and talk to you about the girl you are with when you and I were in the same place. I have typed you a message quite a few times congratulating you, but I was never able to send it. I was never able to send it because I felt like it was something that I owed saying to you in person. I gave you two years of my life, so I owed congratulating you on the rest of your life in person.
As you plan for your wedding day, it is difficult seeing someone who meant so much to me at one point so far away. I am not ashamed to admit that. I don’t want to give off the impression that I miss having you in my life. Things with you and I were unhealthy and not what either of us needed. I hope that she is what you need. I hope that you are happy. I hope that as you prepare for your wedding day that you think back on the two years that you spent with the wrong one and you remember all that you learned from that. I hope that you remember how much you loved the wrong girl, and I hope you love the right girl so much more. I hope that you are positive in everything that you are doing and that it is the best thing you have ever done.
I am so happy for you and I hope that you have grown into the amazing man that will be an amazing husband for her. This may not be something that I am saying to you in person and I doubt that I ever will, but it is something that had to be said. I am happy for you. I hope your wedding day is everything you have ever dreamed of, but more than that I hope that your marriage is everything that you have ever dreamed of. I wish you the best. With love always-CG
