Recently, there has been some speculation on the manner in which I love. I'm quite honest whenever I get into these conversations, and I am always willing to have them. This week, I figured that I might as well explore into this topic in order to compose my thoughts on the matter as eloquently as I am able.

To begin with, I believe that there are different ways that people love. I am in no way saying that my manner is the absolute correct one. Rather, I am arguing that there is nothing wrong with the way I love, and frankly, I'm sick of even having to defend it. I love everything. Anyone who comes into contact with me will typically leave with a funny story and a new friend. There are a select few people, however, who receive the full extent of my love. By that I mean that as much as I adore everyone, when you tap on the door to my heart and I let you in, it's an entirely different story.

I love fiercely. I love with everything I have, along with the promise of everything I will ever own. I love with everything that I have, and it just makes sense to me to want to defend the person I love that way as well. I've been called jealous before, so it's not new information that I can be a little possessive. I have dealt with a lot of self-hate and a lot of failed attempts at creating lasting relationships. I think I can be forgiven for worrying that it will happen again. Some people are just entirely too precious for me to lose.

Is it smart to fall into something head first with your heart in your hand?

No, but it's better than doing something half-heartedly. I get my heart broken so easily because I literally hand it out to whomever might need it. In retrospect, though, I find so much happiness in so many people. I don't care if my heart gets broken; at least I tried with everything I had to offer to make things work. You can call me a masochist. You can say that I'm paving a more difficult road for myself. You can call me unreasonable. Let me tell you, though, that the manner in which I hold onto people is the one thing that I will never change.

If things go sour, I take pride in knowing that I gave everything I had. I will never give anything less than that to people I want to keep in my life.