The Struggles Of Being A Fat Person At The Gym

The Struggles Of Being A Fat Person At The Gym

Going to the gym is hard but going to the gym fat can be terrifying.
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Going to the gym is never an easy task. Sometimes you lack the motivation, the time, the want, or even the desire to better yourself. However, for others going to the gym evokes emotions such as fear, embarrassment, dread, and sadness. As a person who is far from fit and arguably fat, I used to experience these emotions of dread and embarrassment when I just walked through the doors of the gym, let alone when I began working out. After a few months, I figured out it was OK to go to the gym as a fat person or to talk about protein or supplements as a fat person. Once I figured that out, it made going to the gym a lot more rewarding and less stressful.

First of all, when walking into the gym as a fat person you believe that everyone’s eyes are on you. You can almost feel the judgment as pudgy parts of you begin to jiggle. You feel out of place in your plain workout shorts and oversized T-shirt. You think that everyone is asking themselves questions like: “Is she lost?,” “She’s so fat, why is she even here” or “She is probably going through a New Year’s Resolution or phase.” However, no one is actually thinking these horrible thoughts; no one cares when they are just focused on themselves and improving their appearance. And if someone is judging you, it just means they are judging themselves even harder.

Second, some individuals will think as a fat person you have no idea what you are doing. At first, it was embarrassing, even mortifying, but then I figured out that it helped. Taking advice from individuals who have been going to the gym daily, if not bi-daily, really helps to work out different muscle groups, to avoid injuring yourself, or to learn the equipment you are using. When I returned to a new gym in my hometown over spring break, I was faced with the same types of individuals wondering if my pudgy self needed help. However, when I actually laid down and benched the weight, just watching the shock in their eyes made up for the past few months of dread and self-judgment that I experienced every day while going to the gym.

Third, even though I am fat I still have the right and the knowledge to talk about different protein powders, pre-workout and fitness supplements. Even though I have a pudgy exterior, this doesn’t mean I don’t know which protein powders contain high protein and low sugar and fat. At this point, I know my local GNC like the back of my hand. Whether it’s knowing that amino acids help with recovery, or that pre-workout is needed for my leg day, or even that I know Wheybolic Protein is way better than Muscle Milk, I know what I am talking about. Don’t worry, I might still be very pudgy and blubbery, but I can still have a very intelligent conversation with you about using protein supplements before or after exercise, or determining if you have the right workout regime to use pre-workout. However, having the knowledge about protein powders and pre-workout never justifies talking about them constantly. No one has the right to do that because it is downright annoying.

In the end, I figured that it was OK to go to the gym as a fat person. Once I stopped judging myself, I finally figured out that no one cares that I am fat and working out. After I told myself that going to the gym was necessary for my daily life, it made it easier to walk through the doors and past all of the individuals who are in shape. In some time, I could be one of those "in shape" people but right now I just need to focus on not cheating with that donut or actually pushing myself on leg day, even though every day is leg day. Going to the gym is hard for anyone, but once we stop judging ourselves, the gym becomes less of a monster and more of a friend.

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A Senior's Last Week Of High School

The bittersweet end.
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Well, this is it. This is what we've worked so hard the last four years - who am I kidding - basically what seems like our whole lives for. This is the very last week we will set foot as a student in our high school's hallways. As most schools are getting ready to set their seniors free at last, it all begins to set in - the excitement, the anxiousness, and also the sentiment and nostalgia.

For seniors, the years since our first day as a freshman at the bottom of the high school totem pole have seemed endless, but as we look back on these last few weeks, we realize that this year in particular has gone by extraordinarily fast. It was just yesterday that we were sitting in our classrooms for the very first time, going to our 'last first' practice, and getting our first taste of the (very real) "senioritis". With all that's going on in our lives right now, from sports and clubs, finals, and the sought after graduation ceremony, it's hard to really sit down and think about how our lives are all about to become drastically different. For some it's moving out, and for some it's just the thought of not seeing your best friend on the way to fourth period English; either way, the feels are real. We are all in a tug of war with the emotions going on inside of us; everything is changing - we're ready, but we're not.

THE GOOD. Our lives are about to begin! There is a constant whirlwind of excitement. Senior awards, getting out of school early, parties, and of course Graduation. We are about to be thrust into a world of all new things and new people. Calling our own shots and having the freedom we have so desperately desired since the teenage years began is right around the corner. Maybe the best part is being able to use these new things surrounding you to grow and open your mind and even your heart to ideas you never could before. We get the chance to sink or swim, become our own person, and really begin to find ourselves.

Things we don't even know yet are in the works with new people we haven't even met yet. These friendships we find will be the ones to last us a lifetime. The adventures we experience will transform into the advice we tell our own children and will become the old tales we pass down to our grandkids when they come to visit on the weekends. We will probably hate the all night study sessions, the intensity of finals week, and the overpowering stress and panic of school in general, just like we did in high school... But it will all be worth it for the memories we make that will outlive the stress of that paper due in that class you absolutely hate. As we leave high school, remember what all the parents, teachers, coaches, and mentors are telling you - this are the best times of our lives!

THE BAD. The sentimental emotions are setting in. We're crying, siblings are tearing up, and parents are full-out bawling. On that first day, we never expected the school year to speed by the way it did. Suddenly everything is coming to an end. Our favorite teachers aren't going to be down the hall anymore, our best friends probably won't share a class with us, we won't be coming home to eat dinner with our families...

We all said we wanted to get out of this place, we couldn't wait, we were ready to be on our own; we all said we wouldn't be "so emotional" when the time came, but yet here we are, wishing we could play one more football game with our team or taking the time to make sure we remember the class we liked the most or the person that has made us laugh even when we were so stressed we could cry these past few years. Take the time to hug your parents these last few months. Memorize the facial expressions of your little sister or brother. Remember the sound of your dad coming home from work. These little things we take for granted every day will soon just be the things we tell our college roommate when they ask about where we're from. As much as we've wanted to get out of our house and our school, we never thought it would break our heart as much as it did. We are all beginning to realize that everything we have is about to be gone.

Growing up is scary, but it can also be fun. As we take the last few steps in the hallways of our school, take it all in. Remember, it's okay to be happy; it's okay to be totally excited. But also remember it's okay to be sad. It's okay to be sentimental. It's okay to be scared, too. It's okay to feel all these confusing emotions that we are feeling. The best thing about the bittersweet end to our high school years is that we are finally slowing down our busy lives enough to remember the happy memories.

Try not to get annoyed when your mom starts showing your baby pictures to everyone she sees, or when your dad starts getting aggravated when you talk about moving out and into your new dorm. They're coping with the same emotions we are. Walk through the halls remembering the classes you loved and the classes you hated. Think of the all great times that have happened in our high school years and the friends that have been made that will never be forgotten. We all say we hated school, but we really didn't. Everything is about to change; that's a happy thing, and a sad thing. We all just have to embrace it! We're ready, but we're not...

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Why Ignorance In Our Country Is Not Bliss

And it never will be.

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The saying ignorance is bliss is a bunch of crap. Ignorance is ignorance.

With everything going on in our country, I think it is very important for us to be educating ourselves.

You don't trust the news? Do your own digging.

You don't understand? Do some research.

You don't have the same perspective? Share it.

You only have your religious beliefs to base your knowledge? Learn before you judge.

We live in a scary world today. People judge others they've never met or before they've ever heard their story. People involve themselves in matters that they shouldn't be involved in. People are trying to regulate other people's bodies.

People don't want to learn about the issues they so strongly believe in. People don't want to hear the other side. When did party affiliation become more important than being a human being? When did men get the power to decide what women can do with their bodies? When did we stop being compassionate? When did we stop being decent human beings?

I don't want to live in a world where I have all these questions.

I don't want to live in a world where a judicial system will convict a woman who got an abortion after she was raped, but won't convict her rapist.

I don't want to live in a world where my social media timeline makes me want to cry.

I want to live in a world where everyone's opinion matters, not just the one you agree with.

I want to live in a world where everyone's voice is heard equally, not just the one's in power.

I want to live in a world where everyone's story is taken into consideration, not just the one's the government wants you to hear.

I want to live in a world where I can raise a young girl and not be afraid for her.

I want to live in a world where we do good.

I want to live in a world where we have differences, but that doesn't make us any less equal.

I want to live in a world where we don't judge before we know.

I want to live in a world where religious beliefs are respected.

I want to live in a world where it doesn't matter what political party you are.

I want to live in a world where people see right from wrong.

I want to live in a world where I am not afraid.

What kind of world do you want to live in?

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