Have you ever been in a crowded room and felt alone and out of place ? Have you ever sat by yourself and had so many thoughts at once you could not catch your breathe ? Have you ever felt like your chest was closing in on you and there was nothing you could do about it? Yeah.. well then you have anxiety and it sucks. It's a scary thing believe me I know.
When I had my first panic attack I was in a place where I was always comfortable. The court, playing the sport I love. I didn't know what to do with myself. I wanted to crawl out of my own skin that I felt so uncomfortable in. It lasted the whole game until at the very end and I just broke down and cried. People thought it was because we lost, others thought it was because my coach yelled at me and if someone asked me how do you even explain it. I didn't know how, it was my first one I didn't know what to do, who to tell, or how to fix it. And that is pretty much what ever panic attack feels like.
As being someone with anxiety the worst is when you're having an attack and the people around you have no clue what's going on and/or how to help you so they just kinda stare at you looking like your crazy. Or when you get a panic attack in the worst possible placed like at work or in the middle of class and you just have to push through it because you don't know what else there is to do. To those who are reading this that have never had anxiety, learn to sympathize because it's not like we do it on purpose. I know it gets annoying when we're about to do something and it's put on hold because of a panic attack but don't act like we can control it or we want it.
Don't get mad at us, especially if you do not know what it feels like. Do you think we want this? Panic attacks come and go when they please during the simplest of activities. The worst is trying to explain to people that you're having one and they say "well you look fine." Well thank you for the confidence booster but just because I look fine does not mean that I am. I know it gets annoying when I do not want to do certain things, or in the middle of things I just shut down. I don't do it on purpose and I hate it when it happens but it sometimes turns into such a uncomfortable paralyzing feeling I don't have an option. If you have anxiety and are reading this a lot of people can relate to exactly what you are going through. If you do nave anxiety and are reading this then, put this all into perspective the next time you're with someone who is having a panic attack.
