Falling into a deep hole, I felt like I was on the verge of losing myself. The world that I got so comfortable with these past five years was just taken away from me overnight. I was in the darkest point of my life with no chance of any light shining through. I kept asking myself, "Who was going to save me if I can't even save myself."
I was living a life that wasn't mine. I could scream for help but it was like nobody could hear me. She was my drug of choice and I was having withdraws. I was so deep into this darkness that I wouldn't be surprised when I would be balling my eyes out and would forget how to breathe at times.
I have always been a fan of Demi Lovato since her Camp Rock and Disney days. But it wasn't until she came out publicly with the battles she was dealing that I was so drawn to her for inspiration. Her story just blew me away. Soon after, I heard she came out with a book so I picked a copy up as soon as I could. It's called " Staying Strong 365 days a Year." It is literally my bible. I read it everyday to keep myself looking forward. It's filled with daily readings, a little piece of her life story, and a goal to achieve for the day. I would be lost without it. This is my second year reading it and I've grown to appreciate this book very much.
I go no where without this book, literally. It is always in my hand. I read the days passage but if I am struggling with something specific that day then I will go back and find the one that I need to read too. I can sit here and say that because of this book and this inspirational woman, I am as strong as I am today. The times when I felt like I had no one to turn to, the pages in her book were what kept my spirits high and kept me going towards the light. It's a powerful thing when someone's story touches you so much that you want to give life a second chance.
Just a couple weekends ago I went to her Future Now Tour and it was a night I wish I could relive. This is the second concert of Demi's that I've been to and they just keep getting better. It's like her songs speak to my soul. She made me feel like my pain was her pain and she understood my struggle. This last concert was incredibly special. Before the concert they put on this little event that you could be invited to.
Cast Centers teamed up with Demi Lovato and Nick Jonas on making this amazing experience possible. It's an intimate session that will leave you feeling invincible. Demi along with a line up of notable speakers tell about their own stories and speak about being your best self. I have learned to fall in love with the stories of these strangers.
It was definitely an experience that has impacted my life. Sitting in a small room just seats away from Demi, the girl who has changed my life for the better without even knowing it, is something I will cherish forever. I could just feel her braveness bouncing off the walls. She is a huge role model in my life. She is the one who helped me realize that the light I was searching for this whole time was within myself. So I can only thank her for that. Thank her for showing me how strong you can come out of that lost world you may once fall into. That once you hit rock bottom the way up is a ladder you will climb of becoming a better version of yourself.
Having my heart broken has to be the most painful feeling I've had to go through. Yet, at the same time it has turned into the most life changing event for me. It's turned me into a stronger and wiser version of the person I used to be. I am able to look into the mirror and believe in my self worth. To see beyond this pain and to believe in greatness for myself that can come from this.
Demi is the one to thank for that. She helped me see that I have it in me to be this amazing person who is destined for greatness. To be brave enough to share my own stories to help not just myself but others too like me. I want to be someones Demi. I want to help someone see their own potential and be that hand for them to hold while fighting to find that light within themselves. If I can come to do that for just one person, I have done what I set out to do.
She brought out that little warrior in me and I can't be more thankful.
