It is time I tell you, this is getting old. I am done making plans with you just to hear the words “Actually, I am going out.” I am done picking you up at night when you cannot even walk by yourself. I am done having to cancel plans because you are too drunk to go. Maybe it is not every day, but it is enough days of the week that I am able to realize alcohol is taking priority over me. Go ahead and get wasted and pass out with your friends, but do not keep expecting me to be there. If you are going to choose alcohol over me, it is time my priorities do not consist of you.

It is time to show you what it is like without me. No one to pick you up at 3 a.m. No one covering you with a blanket and putting water by your side. There will be no one there at 1 a.m. talking to you when you’re intoxicated and emotional. I love you, but I cannot do it anymore. You need to figure out life without me.

All the nights I have spent picking you up, taking care of you and listening to you, I may have acted mad or frustrated with you. Looking back, I am nothing but grateful for those nights. As much as I hated getting out of bed or cancelling plans, every night I spent with you I knew you were home safe. I did not have to lay in bed those nights questioning if you were blacked out somewhere. I never had to question if you got home safe. The nights you aren’t by my side, I have to wonder if someone will take care of you like I do.

I have stayed around through rough times when everyone else seemed to disappear. I love you more than you will ever know and that is the reason I stick around. I stick around for the sober moments that remind me of the good old days. I stay around for the days you may drink but it does not take priority over me. I stay around because even when I am not your priority of the night, you text or call so I know you still care. I keep our relationship strong because I look forward to the day that I take priority over alcohol.

I am only saying this because I care about you and know that you can do better. I believe that you have a better purpose in life than to just getting drunk every night. You have a future bigger than the small town you are staying in. You have better things to do on a Friday night than consume gallons of alcohol and pass out somewhere. You are better than that and it is time you realize that.

So those nights you choose alcohol over me, please remember, I make you a priority, even when you have no reason to be one. Those nights you cancel on me to go get drunk, please think about what is more important. When you call me at 4 a.m. please remember that unlike you, my priorities do not consist of getting drunk.