You’re the girl who dreads those “describe yourself in three words” icebreakers.

You’re the girl who doesn’t know where to start when someone says, “Tell me about yourself.”

I don’t know why you keep trying to take those personality quizzes and fit yourself into one of those boxes. If you do end up getting a single high score, you know that there’ll be a tie for second place. I get it though. You just want to learn more about yourself through external resources, and that can work for a lot of people! Just not you.

“Do you tend to use your intuition or approach things logically?”

“Do you open up to new people immediately, or does it take a while for you to trust someone?”

“Do you cry easily, or do you feel like your heart is made of stone?”

“Do you do what’s best for yourself or for others?”

My answer to all of these are, “¿Por qué no los dos?”

Here's what I do know:

I am a highly emotional person. I spent the entirety of my senior year crying about something, whether it was my last first water break of band camp or the last campfire of the summer season. I still sleep with stuffed animals I’ve had since I was a baby, and I go through old messages and photos on a weekly basis at the least. If someone talks to me even once, my brain automatically puts them on the “I will do what I can to ensure their happiness” list.

Unfortunately, that list also includes rude people and people that have hurt me. I put the people I care about first, even if it means going out of my way to get them some Starbucks because they’re having a bad day or staying up until 3 a.m. just so I can be sure they get home safely. I am the mom and the peacekeeper, and I will do everything I can to prevent the loss of a relationship or to bring people together. If I get a good vibe from you, don’t be surprised if we exchange life stories the very first time we speak. I rarely get angry about anything, but rather upset and sad, and those feelings can linger for days. I am the textbook definition of a Cancer.

I am also an emotionless person. I have never seen "The Notebook," and even if I did, I can assure you that I’ll be more concerned with the irrationality of the characters than “He wrote her a letter every single day for a year! He loves her so much!” The only videos that can make me cry are surprise reunion videos and emotional music videos. I hate putting effort into inefficient situations, and will handle problems in the most rational way. I have absolutely no problem in telling it like it is and being honest with people when there’s conflict.

If you mess with me or someone I love, you can expect a piece of my mind, whether through a grammatically correct text message essay or icy glares in person. I have difficulty sharing my true feelings, especially when I’m upset since my problems are obviously minuscule and petty. I get lonely easily, and push people away when I’m in a funk. The levels of sass I achieve are in the stratosphere, and I’ve developed a reputation of not taking people’s BS. I’m highly independent and have no problem in joining a new activity by myself, even if I don't know anyone there. I don’t let my happiness rely on others.

I have my life together, I do what I love, and I know what I’m passionate about. On the other hand, I’m a constant mess and probably couldn’t tell you what exactly I’m doing at any given moment in my life. I hate doing written work and any class you have to sit down and study for, but I also refuse to accept any final grade below an A. I’m confident and independent, but insecure and seek constant approval of those that I love. I’m a loving person and will always be down for a hug or a heart-to-heart, but it takes some effort and maybe even bribery for me to outright tell you how much I really appreciate you. I use my words wisely and make sure there’s a point to everything I say, but I will have no problem talking about mashed potatoes for an hour. I’m shy, awkward, and hate talking to people because I feel like a bother, but then I have no problem singing karaoke or dancing like an idiot in front of a large group of people.

It confuses me as much as it might confuse you. If it doesn’t confuse you, please get into contact with me any way you can, because I’d like to know how you figured it out. I’ve started to come to terms with it, though. I’m constantly learning how to balance my extremes and how find a happy medium. Every day I’m put in a new situation where I have to decide which parts of me get to take over. Being such a roller coaster emotionally has taught me flexibility. I’ve always had the ability to adapt to whatever life throws at me pretty easily, and we all know that life is that one kid who takes gym way too seriously on dodgeball day. I’ve managed to trick some really amazing people into thinking I’m cool only to lock the doors on them so they can join my journey on the Hot Mess Express. So far, they’ve been extremely entertained.

I could describe myself in three words, but those three words will probably get you no further to knowing more about me. Welcome aboard.