Growing up I was always on a sports team, surrounded by girls all of the time. Girls came and went so the connections that I made with some girls did not last for a long time. Throughout school, I made friends with people, both guys and girls. As we got older and our lives began to change, we grew apart. Even though I have had friendships that have lasted my entire life, I still think about the friends that I made a long the way that I lost in the process of growing up. If we grew apart, if we got into a fight, if outside factors affected our relationship, here are a few things I just want to say to you.
If I lost you because I made you mad, I just want you to know it was never my intentions to hurt you. I would have gone out of my way, and bent over backwards to make you happy. If you feel like I was rude to you or I did something you did not like, just know that I wish you would have told me so we could have fixed it. I know I can be moody, and sarcastic, but I always wanted the best for you, so I am sorry if you did not see that.
If I lost you because we pursued different lifestyles, just know that I am happy for you. I am so happy that you are living the life that you have dreamed of. I hope that you are happier than you have ever been, and that your life is full of adventure, excitement, and joy. It is wonderful to see your posts on social media, seeing the wonderful lives that you are leading and the people you are sharing it with.
If I lost you because we got into a fight, I wish we could have worked it out. I wish we could have stayed connected and still keep in contact. I want you to know that I still think about you everyday. I would love to reach out to you and ask you how your life is, but I do not want to be a burden on you. You were a big part of my life, and I am forever thankful for the positive impacts that you made in my life. I am sorry that we ended things in a negative way, but just know that I want nothing but the best for you.
If someone took our friendship away, I hope they were worth it. If you got a girlfriend or a boyfriend who did not want you to have friends, I hope they were worth it. I hope they put a smile on your face and make you a better person. I hope it was worth throwing away someone who genuinely cared for your well being. I hope you think about me and think about how I am doing, and realize that I am doing fine without you. If you can throw me away, and the friendship that we had, you did not value our friendship enough. I still think of you often, and want the best for you, but I do not want you in my life unless you wanna be apart of it 100%.
If I left, I did it because I no longer felt like our friendship was a healthy one. Having toxic relationships is not something that I want to be apart in. If you were partaking in a lifestyle that I no longer agreed with, I left. If you were a guy friend of mine, I might have left because I began to develop feelings for you that I knew would affect our friendship. If I did leave our friendship behind, just know I did it with a heavy heart and wished it would not have come to what it did.
Even though I have lost some friendships through out my life, I have gained so many wonderful friendships along the way. The friendships that I have gained, and the friends that have stuck by me have been the most wonderful people that I could ask for as friends. I am thankful to y'all for giving me continuous love, laughter, and smiles.
