It's been nine years since I spoke my very last words to you in a painful goodbye. However, if I have learned anything in these nine years without you, it is not to focus on the end of your life and all the bad parts that came with it, but focus on the amazing memories and how proud you would have been of me now.

You were always an amazing father. You gave me an adventurous and fun-filled childhood with the very little we had. You worked hard to take care of mom and I because you loved us so much. I never realized this until I was older and able to understand the sacrifices you made for me. From quitting college, to spending the little money you had me to make me happy. You would have made and amazing history teacher. I know this was always your dream and I would like to think you would have perused that dream somehow if you were still here.

At every turning point in my life and monumental moment I can't help but wish you were here. Here to take a million pictures like you always did. Here for me to be able to see your smiling and proud face every step of the way. I know you would be proud of me. I know you would be taking way to many pictures, and I know you would be there for me every step of the way.

Now that I am about to start college, I know you be very proud and humbled that I am taking this step in my life. That I am pursuing my dreams and trying to give myself a better life. I miss you like crazy at times in life like this but I know in my heart that you are with me still supporting me every step of the way. I will always wish you were here.