To The Boy That Broke My Heart That I Still Love

To The Boy That Broke My Heart That I Still Love,

Be the girl that doesn’t fear love. Be the girl that embraces everything about love and then some. Be the girl to show the world nothing can bring you down. Be the one to spread love even if your heart has been broken in a million pieces. Be the girl that believes in love.

Well, I’m not sure where to start, so I’m just going to start like this... you met me ___ years ago. You met this young ___ year old girl who didn’t know anything about love except for the ones in the movies. The very first date, she fell head over heels for you. Let me just kind of explain myself throughout these past __ years. I’m not your typical girl, and when I say I don’t half-ass anything, I’m implying that I do not half-ass anything, especially with love. I never truly knew what love was, but I as soon as I started to feel it all with you, I felt it deeply. I love deeply. It's something that has always been in me. I have a huge heart and I will bend over backwards for you repeatedly just to put a smile on your face. When I love, I love hard. I will love you, and only you. I will put my whole heart, mind, body and soul into it. Unlike a lot of people I know, I truly believe I know how to love the right way. If you let me love you with everything I have, I will change your entire life. I will show you how amazing love truly is. I will show you how much this life has to offer just with love. I will show you to love yourself and to begin to love everyone and everything around you. I will show you the finer things in life.

I understand, I may not be the easiest to love. I may scare you because of how much I value love in it’s entirety. I value the most beautiful thing in life and I truly believe that is love. No matter how bad I’ve been hurt, heart broken, bawling my eyes out, walked all over, cheated on, lied to, I will continue to pour my love out. I have seen all the ugly parts of love, and I am telling you right now, I would choose to love over and over and over again. I’ve seen all the ugly parts of love because I took chances. I gave my heart out over and over again. I believed that people do mean well and that people actually do learn from their mistakes. I’ve felt some of the worst pain in my life for loving someone like you, but pain is okay. Getting hurt that horribly just means I gave my full heart for something I wanted.

I am willing to work for the relationship we both deserve. I’m willing to take chances. I’m willing to risk getting hurt in hopes you could actually love me back. I truly don’t fear pain. I don’t fear heartbreak. I don’t fear hurtful words and actions. I’ll give you the best of me and I’ll always love you the right way. I will never intentionally hurt you. I will never use hurtful words to bring you down. I am straight forward with a one track mind. If I’m loving you, I will love you to my fullest. I’ll love you the best way I know how. I want you. I want us to make it. I want us to experience the relationship they write about. We’ve been there once or twice. We both know what it takes to get there. It takes having faith in one another. It’s a bit risky. It’s a bit of being vulnerable. It’s a bit of letting your guard down, letting your pride go, and blindly trusting someone. It’s about knowing the past, and healing each other from it. I entrust in you to take my past mistakes, my scars, my wounds, my insecurities and help me move forward with them, not use them against me as a weapon.

If you respect me, this relationship, love and care about me, I’ll teach you to dance with your own skeleton and not be terrified of your shadow. I’ll teach you to love your past instead of resenting it or reliving it. I’ve accepted you at your absolute worst and I’ll show you how to love that way. If you’re willing to take this chance, I promise it’ll be worth it. Yes, it’ll be one hell of a ride and that's okay, because it already has been. I ask you to truly look back and think about what you’ve done and realize that is not the person you are. I may not be the easiest person to love, but that’s because I know how to do it the right way. In a world that teaches us to love with only half of our heart, I don’t do that. I am the girl who will love you in ways you never knew were possible, and when I do, that's the standard you'll compare everyone else to. Your life will never be the same. You may believe you'll find someone better, or that you have, but you'll never find someone who has loved you and your family the way I do.

To tell the boy that hurt you, never give up on what is real.