I have officially been done with undergrad for two weeks, and in that two weeks, life has really started to set in. I don’t really know what I’m going to do, I have nothing really set up from now until January, when I start teaching Girls Who Code. It is a terrible and weird feeling to actually have nothing to do. Some may be jealous, but don't be, seriously.
If you haven’t already heard, there is this weird time between graduation and “the real world” beginning where we fall into this uncomfortable and sad nothingness. Believe me when I tell you that I have never felt so useless in my life. I am currently working with a few clients, but not enough to support me financially, I am working my summer job from the past five years, which is at least something, and I am watching a lot of Netflix.
I am stuck in limbo and I am very unmotivated. As I write, I am looking for Zumba classes just so I have an excuse to leave my bed, I could barely even find motivation to write this article. Yet, here we are. This is pieced together, I know, but I too am in pieces. Hahaha what a good cliche...
I'm not sure where I am right now, but I guess that is okay.
Things pick up in January for me, with travel, work, and teaching, there is something to look forward to. But for now, I am stuck. I hate this feeling, and I really hate not knowing when or how to make it go away. It’s not like I’m not trying to find other clients. I actively hand out cards and shamelessly self promote, but I just haven’t gotten the hang of everything yet.
I sound lazy and unmotivated but please don’t take these two thoughts away from this. Be warned, and take action. Line things up. Furthermore, line things up that you’re excited to do. I am SO excited to teach Girls Who Code but it’s far off. Personally, I am taking a trip, maybe even two! I am ready for this month to end so I can start living in “the real world.”
In the midst of all of these feelings, be sure to have amazing people in your life, no matter how far away they are, to cheer you up, give you motivation, and love you at your low points. I’m gonna make it through, and I’m gonna have success. It is the getting there that will be the hardest, but I guess that is part of the fun.
