For the longest time, I thought I had to be with someone. I thought that I needed the love from someone else besides my friends and family, and I did everything to be in a relationship. I joined dating websites, went out to clubs to find viable partners, and many other things I am not very proud to admit. But it does not always have to be like that.
It's okay to be on your own.
It took me forever to get over my ex. I thought that I still needed him in my life to make me feel happy. There was safety, security, and whatever positive wording you could use, I am pretty sure there was that sort of giddy feeling. I mistook that suffocation as security, though. I used to think of him often, wondering what he was up to or something like that. Everyday things would often remind me of him, and it felt super wicked that my mind would play these tricks on me. Luckily, the less I thought of him, the more I became less stressed. The more I reminded myself that the relationship was very toxic to my life, the easier it was for me to forget him. Now, the memories are bittersweet, but I don't think of him often at all.
Dating websites are chock full of people that don't have your feelings in mind. I found that out the hard way. Sure, it is a stereotype to find only people to "hump and dump" as I like to call it. You never know if you will find a rare gem or two on there or not. I thought I would find one but that was terrible, trust me, do not resort to that. Although I am still on there, it is just to check or find a good bio or two that make me giggle.
Clubbing or any social situation is the same exact way. Maybe there might be a slight chance that there will be your knight in shining armor to hold your hair back, but they are slim. Most of the guys just want to bump and grind. Sorry to burst your little bubble. I say this with all of the greatest intentions, I swear! But, hey, they do dance well. There are some positives coming out of this. Save that number for later if you are into that. I am not judging you there. It is just not my cup of tea.
All in all, it is your choice whether you want to stay single or not. I'm just putting my two cents in on the matter. Just know that I find you very beautiful. If you feel discouraged for being single, do not feel bad. I am single too, and look how beautiful I am. I choose to be this way now. I have accepted it. I am not saying you have to accept it, but I have. Just you do you, girlfriend. I am here for you if you need me, just hit me up if you need advice or cheering up!
Now, I hope you liked that one! I'm considering doing a special secret video next week! So tune in for that! Hope you all have a wonderful week, and I'll see your lovely faces in the next one! Deuces!
