College is about the waiting game.

We sit and plan our futures. What classes am I going to take in 2 semesters? Am I going to study abroad fall or spring in 3 semesters? What internship am I going to choose this summer? Should I intern next summer? Where should I live after graduation?

We sit and plan our futures thinking that everything will turn out according to plan. Sometimes it does, but often we have to twist and bend with the way the path takes us. However, we are stubborn, overachieving students who want our present and future to be the way we dream it up.

Randall Pearson in This Is Us said that "There is absolutely no point in controlling the future because no one knows where we’ll be even one year from now."

I heard this and instantly started to have the infamous existential crises. I sit and plan out how my life is going to be. I plan on studying abroad, I plan on getting an internship, I plan on graduate school, I plan on this and that. I am fully aware that plans can change but I don't want them to because we are taught to ALWAYS have a plan in this life. It seems like the end of the world when we don't.

I am sitting and waiting right now for things to work out and it's awful.

None of my summer internship plans have materialized the way I thought they would. I thought I was ahead of the game about a month ago, and now I feel behind because my plan isn't working out the way I thought. I can't even control what is happening a month later.

So I decided to sit and wait and not think about internships: let God do his thing. I would sit and let God lead me to what's right for me this summer. It's utterly terrifying to sit and wait and realize that I'm not in complete control of what happens in my future.

But in sitting and waiting, opportunities have come my way.

Maybe you should sit and wait too?

Send that last internship application and email, then wait. Wait for things to come to you because I think as college students we need to learn that everything will be okay and work out.

College feels like we need to take everything into our own hands because we are creating our destinies and future right now.

Randall Pearson then said that "what we can control are the people we choose. Choosing our people is the closest we come to controlling our destiny.”

And I can't help but agree. We can choose the people we stress with, have an existential crises with, have fun with, and in general do life with. These are the people that are going to keep us sane in the sitting and waiting.

God is there in the sitting and waiting, except he isn't sitting and waiting, he is doing. If you don't believe in God or Jesus, then a higher power or the universe. Whatever you believe in, trust in it.

Whether you are applying to internships and stressed or just stressed about the future in general: sit, relax, and wait a bit for things to come your way. I'm not saying don't do anything at all to plan for a future, but we have to bend with the wind.

College, much like the future can be about the waiting game.