I love being by myself all the time. Some people say that being alone all the time isn't healthy but a lot of people feel comfortable being alone, me especially. I do not like socializing with people that much because I am not good with social interactions. I get nervous and then my voice shakes, resulting in embarrassment.

I know that I have to practice becoming more social, but it really isn't that easy. People who are very lively and aren't afraid to start a conversation don't know what it's like to be anti-social, like me. When I am in my room, alone, I feel at peace and comfortable. When I am put into a situation where I am FORCED to talk to people, I start to panic and attempt to flee.

My parents and grandparents always told me that if I worked on it, I would become more social and I would "get out of my comfort zone." Not necessarily. You can't force someone into a situation that they aren't comfortable with. It will only make things worse. It's like throwing a person into a lion's den and expecting them not to freak out.

I was never good at making friends, hence why I stay in my room all the time, but it's also because of my depression (see other article for more information). When I WAS around friends that I magically made, I would always try to make myself look cooler than I actually was, making my situation even worse.

Also, I don't like making friends because most of them carry a lot of drama on their shoulders and then they push their drama onto me, making me stressed out and distant. I try my hardest to stay away from drama like its the plague.

Furthermore, I do not trust people that easily. I have been lied to and back-stabbed in the past. I had friends who would hide things from me and lie to me about it. It made me angry that they couldn't just be honest with me; that's what friends do, they're open with each other. Maybe I'm just being nit-picky but I am just more comfortable being alone. In my opinion, it just makes life easier.

I hope I helped you see things clearer from my perspective. Writing this on my computer is much easier than saying this in front of someone's face, believe me.