I am starting my second year at my dream school, the University of California at Los Angeles, and cannot wait to begin in a few weeks. I love Los Angeles, I love my school’s campus, and I love the friends I made during freshman year. But one question still haunts me – did I choose the right college?

I know that the education I am receiving at UCLA is one that is hard to match at most other universities. But as I fill out forms and accept contracts for my second year, the debt that I am slowing burying myself in for this education is beginning to feel suffocating. I keep finding myself worrying that I may have made the wrong choice and will not be able to handle the price of my education after graduation. Will I be able to pay off the debt? What if I can’t find a stable job to do that? After all, I am a psychology major. The worry keeps piling, but for now, I just ignore the persisting idea in the back of my mind.

Along with the hefty price tag of my years of college, I keep finding myself wondering what life would have been like if I had gone to New York City for college, my second choice to UCLA. On paper, I should have gone there. I was close to my friends, close to my boyfriend, and had a generous scholarship to a decent school. But the driving force of my decision was the idea that a degree from a better college that would help land a better job after school would be worth the extra debt. Still, I catch myself thinking maybe I should have gone to New York; that life might have been amazing and I might have possibly missed my only chance to live in Manhattan.

With second doubts still popping into my mind occasionally, I feel guilty. Guilty that I am unsure of what I decided as my parents try their best to pay for my amazing education. Guilty that I don’t full-heartedly love my university at all times, even though it is my dream school. Guilty that I wonder what my relationship would have been like if I were only a two-hour train ride away instead of a full day of flying away. I don't want to have second doubts, but I can’t help that my mind will wander to this argument in my head from time to time.

I know that I love my university and that what I am fortunate to experience here is one of the best educations available in this country. I am so proud that I am a student at UCLA and could not be more grateful to my parents who did everything they could for making this dream possible. I don’t know why doubts still cross my mind, but even with those nagging me at the back if my mind, I know that I am where I am supposed to be.