As a plus-sized girl, I've had my fair share of rejection from people that can't look past my appearance and are too afraid to talk about it. When I met you, I finally found someone who actually wanted to be in my life ... or so I thought ... and maybe still think?
We met, hung out for a bit and shared a connection unlike any I have ever experienced with another human. We went our separate ways, but always stayed in contact, at least every other day, through text, and then on spring break, you came to visit and everything was great. The second time you came was the last time we talked for a month. Figuring the friendship was over, I gave up on trying to talk to you. Then I find out you're here again. I see you, and we continue our same sassy nature as normal but still, no contact after you leave. What up, bruh?
We shared a lot about ourselves to one another and always had a similar sense of humor. You know how I feel about you and about our friendship, and you have never once denied nor affirmed any feelings you have towards me, so I have a message for you.
I'm tired of having your face constantly in the back of my mind and getting in the way of any possible relationship I could have with someone else. Because of the mixed feelings I keep having towards you, I find myself pushing away any emotions I have towards another person, because you haven't said anything to completely shut me down. Honestly, I really wish you would, because, although it would be hard to accept at first, I deserve better, and I would be able to move on and erase the thought of us ever being as close as we used to be.
All you ladies and gents out there reading this who are getting those mixed signals, I advise you to choose yourself instead of waiting for him or her to magically decide what they want. I have spent many "11:11 wishes" on hoping he would finally realize I was the one he wanted to have in his life and, believe me, that day will most likely never come. Trust me, you're going to feel a lot better and feel like you have just been given a fresh start, no matter if you spent a week dealing with this person or years. You are worthy of someone who's going tell you straight up how they feel and who wants to tell their friends about you.
To the guy this letter was intended for, you're not doing me or yourself any favors by leaving things lingering. Man up, and tell me what I need to hear to get some freedom. Unfortunately, until I hear it from you, my mind is going to keep telling me that there's a chance for a future.
