Dear you,
I'm not completely sure why I am writing this. It's not like you'll ever read this. But, there are things that I need to get off my chest and I don't know how else to do it. You were the one person who I always thought I would end up. I feel like a lot of people did. We had feelings for each other for a really long time, but never at the same time. Maybe that was the problem.
In March of senior year, we went on a field trip to the art museum. We ended up talking the entire time and I loved catching up with you. We hadn't talked like that for a really long time and I had an amazing time. You told me that you were having doubts about your relationship. This made me think that maybe something would happen.
After that, we had Spring Break. I was in Florida during Spring Break and we had talked almost the entire break. You called me at some point during the break and told me that the doubts you were having in your relationship, you know that you would never have with me.
By the end of senior year, I was almost positive that we would end up together. Even though you were with someone else, you made it seem like you didn't want to be with her. You told me you were breaking up with her for me. You told me you wanted to be with me. You told me you wanted to wait until after graduation and that should've been the first sign that something wasn't right. I shouldn't have listened to you.
Even though I waited for you, nothing happened. I should've known. You claimed that she needed you. But what about me? What about my feelings? It was like you didn't care at all. So I tried to forget about it. I tried to forget about you. And we didn't talk for a while.
The only time you talked to me after that was when you weren't in a relationship. You kept going back to her even though you told me multiple times that she wasn't the one. I never understood how you could do that and I still don't understand.
Even now, almost two years after we graduated from high school, I am still hurt by what you did. I understand that I wasn't the perfect person, but I never did to you what you did to me. I don't know if I will ever get over what happened. You have made me have trust issues that I should've never had.
I want you to know that I don't hate you. Even after I've decided to keep you out of my life. I will never hate you. I didn't decide to stop talking to you because I hated you. I did it because I had to. It was the only thing that would make me feel better. I am disappointed about how things ended, but everything that happened taught me a lot. I will never regret meeting you and I will always miss you.
Sincerely,
An Old Friend
