We all have those friends that are either married, engaged, having babies or have been dating forever and just need to put a ring on it. It can be rather easy when all your social media is flooded with baby pictures and wedding pictures and how much they love their significant other posts, to feel quite lonely. The common thoughts that run through my head are why can't I find someone? Why can't that be me? How long is it going to be before I can be happily married?
Recently, I have come to terms with that. I am perfectly okay being single for awhile, not forever, but for awhile. At my ripe old age of nineteen going on twenty, I have found that a good and healthy relationship is extremely hard work let alone anything else you have going on in your life. It is a constant effort. However, I am currently a full-time college student with a part-time job. I have a hard enough time trying to fit in a social life let alone a serious relationship.
Now if you are one of the people that I alluded to in the beginning, I am in no way bashing you. I congratulate you! Good job, because it is hard work! However, over the last year and a half, I have realized that at this point in time, the relationship life is not for me. I want to live for myself. I want to be able to have the freedom to get up and go wherever I want to at the drop of a hat. I want to be able to live for myself and only myself.
I now that can sound selfish. That I should want to share my life with others, and I do. Just not exactly a significant other at this point in time. I want to take the rest of my time in college and maybe awhile after that to live for myself. With that being said, if God wants to bring a significant other into my life, great! But I am not going to waste my time actively searching. I have tried numerous online dating sites, and it is a waste of my time. I know it has worked for some. I know some people just use them for a good laugh but I have not found success and truly am not motivated to make it work.
I am okay with being single in a world that seems like it is flooding with relationships. I am happy for you and I am content with my choices. I can't wait to be in my friend's weddings but have never thought about my own. I am excited for my future regardless of who I am with. I am excited for my growth as an individual. I believe that I need to know who I am before I can be with anyone else. The famous phrase "you do you" is kind of what I am going off of here. I want to do me. I want to do things for myself. I want to live for myself. Eventually, I will get to a point where that will change, but until that point, I am perfectly fine being single in college and in my twenties.
