If you think back to everyone who has touched your life somehow, there would be countless of lives that have made you into who you are today. From the Walmart checkout lady, your parents, your first crush, and everyone else in your life, they have all helped formed who you are.
Life is a lot of checks and balances, where we gain so many people in our lives, but at the same time, people leave our lives. It is always one of the hardest things when people are gone because they start as such a vital piece of you and then that piece is missing. Slowly we heal and can move forward with our lives. Whether the person has passed away, as time passes we have drifted apart, or we ended on bad terms, losing people is not easy and never will be.
Maybe it's hearing a song on the radio, a particular day of the year, or a random thought that crosses my mind, you are not forgotten. These reminders may not happen every day, but these little moments of nostalgia can stop me in my tracks. It may make me smile or cause a few tears to form in my eyes, but I wouldn't want it any other way. These memories have made us who we both are. It may not always be the happiest to think about the people who aren't in our lives, but they have made us stronger people. It takes a lot to have a part of you taken away and then be able to continue.
Sometimes I try to imagine my life would be like if you would never have walked into my life, and it is honestly impossible to wrap my head around. Our lives are this giant spider web of connections all wound together. Even if things weren't perfect, I wouldn't have wanted it to be any other way. Having people in our lives may cause a lot of heartbreak, so much joy, and countless other emotions but these feelings are essential to our development. Trying to erase the memories of people in our lives ultimately is erasing our emotional milestones.
No matter how things ended between us, know that I will always root for you and pray that the best is yet to come. I'm sorry we may not be as close as we use to be, but who knows where life will take us. Life is mysterious like that.
For those who have left this world, I cannot wait to see you again. I hope you are proud of who I am today and know that you have meant so much to me no matter how much time has passed. I continue going on with life because I know you are here in spirit.
I have to admit from experience, it is not easy to lose a person in your life, but I have learned that you must let things go to become a better, not bitter, person.
Thank you, to those who have touched my life and made me who I am today. No matter how much time has passed since we've last talked, you will always be a part of me.
