Today marks the start of the fourth week of the new year, and the third week into the new semester for me her in North Carolina. With all of this "newness" in the air, New Years resolutions should be swinging at an all time high. Not mine! I have learned very early in life that resolutions don't solve anything. In my experience, all they do is make actions sound pretty but they don't lend themselves to putting the actions. . . well into action. So here I am with a week and some odd days left in the first month of the new year and I'm still a procrastinator, I still haven't come close to reaching my goal weight and there are loose ends of relationships that still need to be tied up.
With all of that being said, I took a step back recently and I made a decision. It's a decision that I am sure many others have made, this year and years before. For this new year of 2017, I will not rely on a list of resolutions to change myself. Instead a will use a new word to define who I am and who I want to be. I believe everyone has a word that defines who they are. One word that comes to mind when thinking of that person. In the past I have had others tell me that my word was negative. I always looked at the glass as half empty. I constantly doubted myself and I ignored all of the amazing attributes that I knew I had. This year I made my word Positivity. In everything I do, in everything I see, I'm going to find the positive rather than automatically finding the negative. Rather than seeing what's wrong with it, I'm going to find what's right with it. I know change is difficult and it doesn't happen over night but it does happen. It happens slowly, so that you don't notice it until it's done. So I'm still a procrastinator but I am learning to manage my time in order to finish what I've started. I haven't reached my goal weight but I exercising and learning to balance my meals. Sometimes I slip but I fix my footing, pull myself up and get back on track with that plan I set up for myself. And as far as my relationships, I'm talking and listening and learning with them to learn how to become better towards them, for them and for myself.
