I am 23 years old, and I have never been in a relationship.

My longest relationship lasted one week, which I do not count simply because it was not stable. I broke up with him, as I knew that even getting with him was a mistake.

So I never had an official relationship, or at least one that was meaningful to me.

When people ask me how many boyfriends I have had and I tell them zero, they are shocked. They say "But you're so pretty and nice" or "How is that possible?" Well for some people it is possible not to have a relationship ever.

If you really want to count the one-week boyfriend I had as a relationship, go ahead. But for me, it does not count.

Now why haven't I had a boyfriend? Am I ugly looking? Am I difficult? Am I picky? Am I just destined to be single?

I cannot say what the future holds, but I know a few things about myself to why I have not had a boyfriend.

I have low self-confidence, which has kept me from dating. Then when I actually started to date in college, I realized guys just wanted sex, not to actually date.I was not a hook-up kind of girl. Maybe I set my expectations too high but I knew I was not going to date someone that chatted me at 2 AM for sex.

I have been on many dates. Some I actually liked but I was either ghosted or it did not work out. Others I just felt no connection with. I am not sure if I am picky. All I know though is that when I feel a connection, I will feel it.

I always wondered if I was gay which could explain the lack of a boyfriend but to be honest, I love men.

I try to meet guys on dating apps and bars a few times. I just may not have the charm.

To be honest, I do get lonely all the time. However, I do not mind never having a solid relationship before. I am willing to wait for the right person if I have to. I get a lot of anxiety anyway's talking to a guy and I usually get my hopes up when I actually think it will work out, and it does not.

So I have never been in a relationship, and I guess I will just have to wait to see if I will ever have one.