I love you,

Well at least that's what I said

And I've been trying to make this unfamiliar love make sense

I needed you and not in the sense of love

But I lost myself because before I knew it,

I was standing in a hole that you dug.

To leave me stagnant, craving you

Because you love me? Want me?

No, that can't be.

The love you speak of does not exist

This one-sided, uncertainty, that only I couldn't resist.

You don't love me, you broke me

Used words to create an illusion

I swear, I didn't try to let you in

Such an unexpected intrusion

It was you who made this light called love dim

Forgive me if you were the bait

And I should be the one that you hate

I just wanted to fix the wounds of broken hearted bullets shot through my chest

That I didn't realize I would be holding the gun pointed to you next

Love?

I didn't even know what it was until we met

Had me wanting to memorize you 26 times like the alphabet:

Attentive when I'm speaking because you know I love to talk

Breaking all the rules when I gave you my heart

Creeped up on me, and I didn't hear your footsteps

Dysfunctionally had me grabbing on your triceps

Everything, is what you said you would give to me

Forever swindling dreams whispered in my ear unquestionably

Granted, your intensity kept me going

Had my smiles and my inner sides showing

Inevitably like a sleeping gas making me unconscious

Just in case I dove into love without precautions

Killing the doubts of love being real

Last I'll show how I feel

Misconceptions of what it was to be smitten

No wonder my individuality was hidden

"Open up to me, I'll catch you when you fall"

Please be the one that's different from them all

Quench the thirst of loves breathless hit

Rough around the edges, so why didn't you quit?

Sacrificed my heart for temporary happiness

Tasting the salty bitterness of nights sleeplessness

Understand that my heart pumped for you desperately

Vital to my life trying to breathe correctly

Wishing that I wasn't tempted with the gun

X and O's triggered each bullet fired

You didn't think after you declared war it was done?

Zero love in this machine the time has expired

And you ask: why would I do to you, what was done to me?

I didn't want to be the only one who knows what it's like being someone's accessory

Worn, used, because I'm a great compliment

Apparently, love made me incompetent

So what does that make you?

"I love you", at least that what you said

Three little word that kept you constant in my head

I can admit it made me crazy

Because with each petal, "loves me not" ended my daisies.