Do you ever have the feeling that something is missing?
Lately, I have been having this feeling that I'm missing something. It has been making me anxious because I can't really pinpoint what it is. Could it be the fact that I feel somewhat behind in my accomplishments or that everyone around me is going on these cool adventures? As I'm scrolling through social media, I begin comparing myself to others around me and I feel like I was missing out. I started to think, why am I not being as productive as them or having as much fun as them? The more I started comparing myself the more I felt lost. I felt lost in what I needed and why I was feeling the way I was feeling. It honestly got pretty tiring mentally, comparing myself to these highlight reels of everyone's social media.
With this anxious feeling in me, I decided it was time to drive back to Phoenix and spend a couple days at home. Through these couple of days, I was able to spend time with those that mattered and get my mind off of things. From cuddling with my dogs and eating home cooked meals, I realized how blessed I was. Sure my life may not be as extravagant or adventurous as everyone else, but I had loving and supporting close friends and family. I guess I just needed to take a step back and reflect on what I was thankful for. As for that feeling of missing something, I've come to terms with it. I'll eventually find whatever that missing part may be, but for the time being, I'm going to focus on myself. Who knows maybe through this time of self-reflection and growth, I'll end up finding the missing piece.
