From the moment I met you, I knew you were the one, well at least I thought you were. My heart instantly fell for the small gestures you did to make me smile. The way you made sure to get me candy and a cherry slushy for our movie dates. The forehead kisses you gave me and tying my shoe because my bows always came undone.
Although I saw the signs for you not wanting everlasting, I kept holding on with the hope of changing your mind someday. We broke up many times but couldn't seem to stay away from each other for too long. Two years later and I moved away with your promise of staying with me forever. However, it became exhausting with the constant fights. You didn't make time to visit me and I was always the one to visit you or to simply send you a "good morning" text. The effort to make this relationship work was a one way street with you. You never cared to make up after a fight, because you could simply ignore me and fall asleep while I cry into my pillow. You said you care and love me but you don't destroy people you love. You took advantage of my kindness and abused it in every way you could. How could you? Silly of me to stay hoping you would one day change and love me the way that I deserve.
Fast forward, three years later and I am planning my move back to be closer and to make things work. Everyone kept telling me how silly I was, to follow a man who had no intentions of a future with me. A man who wouldn't give me any security of a future together. Who was I to you? Just a girl you had fun with? I am more than that. I finally had the courage to ask you if you saw a future with me, but your response shattered my heart. You didn't plan on getting married, because you're chasing your dreams. "Leave if you want, I'm not forcing you to stay" you stated.
The man that I am so deeply in love with wouldn't even fight for me. He didn't care if someone else married me. I was so heartbroken and angry. How could anyone be so heartless to play such an emotional game with someone's heart? Why didn't he just leave me alone when I moved? Why did he keep coming back? I asked myself so many questions. WHY? Here I am today, and I still don't have an answer.
My goodbyes were said with the same tender heart I love you with and I wished you well. I wish for all of your dreams to come true. I hope everything you are fighting for makes you the happiest man on this earth. If you truly love someone, it will always be unconditional, no matter what happens. That's how I know I love you because even though you couldn't promise me forever, you will still have a place in my heart. And even miles away I will still love you.
