Embarking on a new journey, I have decided to take the step in getting healthier and feeling better about my body. Many people have told me that I look great for someone who had a child, but, well, that was three years ago, and that excuse is not acceptable anymore. I tried and failed multiple times to achieve this goal on my own and eventually gave up and told myself that it was just not worth it. However, the more I thought about it, the more depressed I got and realized I need to make a change. A girl I am friends with on Facebook posted a picture of herself at the beginning of her journey. I remember thinking that I could not post a picture like that on a social media site. After some time, she posted another photo, her before and after, and I was like,"Wow! If she could do it, then so can I." She mentioned how it has helped with her anxiety and depression and things I experience as well. Fast forward to now; she offers personal training lessons, and I made the jump and signed up two weeks ago. After a session this week, I realized just how out of shape I am in and how out of control of my own body I am. This session literally pushed me past a breaking point, and I wanted to quit desperately. However, she kept telling me, "We have time, and you got this," and that if I continue, I would eventually see results, and it would get easier. My body was yelling stop, but my heart said I need to do this. So I didn’t quit, I endured the final exercise no matter how much I thought I was going to vomit. Sometimes I worry about the money, but this is a lifestyle change that I need to make in order to feel better about myself. It's more than just looking better, although that would be a plus. I have thought multiple times that it didn’t matter what others thought about me, but what I thought of myself did. But then I thought, "What if those two things are actually the same?" I want to get into shape. I want to not breath heavily after walking up a flight of stairs. I want to have more energy to be able to go outside and run around with my daughter when she wants to play. I know it's going to be a long journey, and it has only just begun. However, this is a journey I need to go through and not give up on. I made a huge leap forward by getting a personal trainer. She’s more than just my motivator; she holds me accountable. She reminds me that we can go at my own pace, that it takes baby steps, but after some time I would see huge improvements. That is what I needed, to know I can do it if I stick with it. I am starting with baby steps: cutting out soda, switching from fried to grilled, etc. I am holding myself accountable for my body, and I am thankful for my personal trainer who will help me along the way.
