The transition between high school and the rest of your life is very challenging. You start to see things from an adult point of view, you see yourself not caring about the crappy high school drama you left behind once you walked across that stage, and most importantly, you feel yourself maturing and looking forward to the new life ahead of you.
Some people choose to go 30 minutes from home, while others take on the adventure of going across the country to get the satisfaction of being away. No matter where you find yourself calling some strange place with strange people your new home, everyone has one thing in common:parts of high school never leave, and I mean, why should they? You dedicated 4 years to sit in the same seats with the same people learning new things all while managing to not completely give up and drop out like we have all contemplated millions of times. It won't be the 6 am wake up calls (or the 10 minute-before-first-period wake up calls for some of us), the endless hours of studying, or even the satisfaction of passing that test we already came to the reality of failing, that will hold us back to that "wonderful" place we call our high school alma mater.
The thing that will hold us back is the bond we hold with many of the people we spent our 8 hour days with. The friendships that we thought would never end, the friendships that were on and off almost every other day, and the friendships we never actually saw coming made our 4 years tolerable.
Now of course we spent most of high school arguing with our friends about the "he said, she said" gossip, getting accused of being two-faced at one point or another, and most of us experienced the friend who thought we were always trying to take their boyfriend. Being a teenager in this age is the simple explanation of why that all occurred, but in the end everyone migrates back to each other and moves on. We expect our friends to stay by our sides no matter what, and we imagine them as part of our future even through the constant nagging of our parents that "in a couple of years you won't ever see these people because life happens."
I have come to the reality that what they say is actually true, and the people left over at the end of it all are the "true friends" you spend all of high school looking for. Unfortunately, losing all my "friends" the summer before college wasn't my plan, but fortunately, I discovered who was actually there for me.
Moving 1,041 miles away from the place I have called my home for the past 18 years has had a huge impact on how I look at life as the date approaches to the official start of my future. I started not caring about the high school drama and started realizing the world doesn't revolve around myself and how I want things to go. I started only caring about my actions, and what I can do to better my future. Most of my friends either physically or mentally stuck in high school saw this as negative and decided to go against me as a gang and make me feel terrible for being the way I thought was best. Lies were made up about me, rumors were started, tweets were made coming at the things they thought would degrade me, and the once "unbreakable" friendships to me were destroyed.
I was a wreck, until I realized they should have been happy for me instead of making me out to be the monster I wasn't. It was in this moment I realized it is okay to lose friends, that is the point of life. Life will never be a smooth ride, and you will constantly meet new people who will either stay or go. Everything happens for a reason and that reason will make itself apparent one time or another. Life is meant to change, and with change comes new people, new experiences (some bad and some good), new challenges and new beginnings.
So, yes I'm okay with having only two friends that have my back, who wants a group of fake friends over a couple real ones anyways? It is okay to lose friends because you'll only lose the ones that weren't meant to be. Just remember, everything happens for a reason.
