I was raised in a very guarded household where nothing beyond love and happiness was expressed in front of children because my family believed that a child is less likely to go down the lane of emotional troubles going from from anxiety to depression, if they have not seen their parents express any negative emotion in peak years of development.
Although their intention was for the best interest of me and my sister, If I speak for myself It became one of the biggest hurdles in my interaction with people once I started my teen years and started looking at the world from a perspective that was new and poles apart from how my parents wanted me to perceive the world. I don't know if any of you have heard your parents constantly tell you as a kid something along the lines of "Don't do certain things, something bad will happen to you" for your safety.
At the age of 6 it made sense that a lot of candy can give you cavities but in my teen years every time I saw someone go through any emotional turmoil I looked for a reason of what could have they possibly done that led them to this moment of breakdown. Sometimes they was no reason which involved a person doing anything "wrong", thats when I learned that bad things are not always a consequence of a mistake "sometimes its is life", and in the past 5 years turned into "It is life" and I realized I do not know how to deal with it.
It use to completely shut me down everytime I learned someone around me was even in the slightess pain. It is an amazing thing to care for people but not when It comes to you forgetting your own emotional health and worry about if your loved ones are happy.I learned it the hard way. Being so far away from home in college tests me everytime i find out if my mother or father even has a minor headache.
I remember my freshmen year I would lose all focus in a jiffy just because my mom had told me she's is missing me over the phone and I would start worrying about her diabetes getting any worse because of stress. It is one of the reasons I am living away for college because I am trying my best to get out of the shell that my parents have me protected in because I need myself to not depend on them but be a shoulder for them and take care of them. I want them to trust that their daughter is capable enough to not just take care of herself but also they can depend on her for their life.
YOGA is the magic that has been helping me along the way. Those seconds where you feel like your body can't hold a pose anymore and It is telling you to just exhale and give up instead of holding your pose for even a millisecond longer, but your mind forces itself to stay strong because It wants you to believe that you can do it.
That is the moment that became my strength from the day I started yoga to this day two years later when I have mastered quite a few yoga poses and built a strong sense of determination. Yoga has become my go to stress reliever. Everytime I feel the slightest negative emotion I find myself doing Yoga and it brings me back to the positive, happy and a caring person who not only recognizes the light in others by just appreciating them but also is willing to help brighten their spark anytime an outside force make it any dimmer.
Plus when you have mastered the art of holding a pose for quite a few seconds It is always a self esteem booster when you can incorporate your smartphone in the pose and capture the precious moment where your beauty lies in strength.
So get your yoga matt ready:
Step 1: Inhale the greatness.
Step 2: Exhale anything that does not help you grow.
Step 3: Hold the pose and commend yourself for the strength you have.
Most importantly: Take a Selfieee!!!
And now you can get into the pose of the child to reward yourself for the hard work before you enjoy a refreshing and energizing day ahead of you.






















