Dear insomniac,
I see you. I know that it is so hard right now. There isn't enough time in a day to get all the things you need to do done, let alone to sleep on top of that. Caffeine runs through your veins and "sleep-deprived" is just another adjective to tack onto your belt. I do not judge you; I worry about you, and I hope that you don't get too burnt out. You don't need to make excuses. Feel justified in missing a couple hours of sleep for all the assignments you got done, or Netflix movies you watched. I hope that soon you reach a point where you can go into a catatonic state and catch up.
For the time being, however, don't feel obligated to cover the dark circles with concealer. You do not need to strive for society's standards of well-rested beauty. People may express concern, and maybe you need to know they care. But don't waste any more sleep waking up early to lighten your body's natural coping mechanism. You are so beautiful, even when you feel too tired to function. Your body will get you through the days that are too long, and the nights that are too short. You may be riding a roller coaster of emotions, and it's okay to snap. It is okay to not know how you got to this point and to feel too lost to go on. I promise you are not alone. I care more than you know, and you have a community of peers and friends who want only the best for you. Life is a little messy for everyone, but this generation's mess is so compatible with everyone surrounding us. You are stronger than you think, and your body will propel you until you can recuperate. Don't stifle the yawns: science says that it is your body's response to tiredness, the action of opening your mouth circulating blood and waking you up. Make sure to mention that fact to anyone who is offended by a natural expelling of air. Sleep in a couple more minutes, even if it means walking into class a little out of breath. If you're fortunate enough to stay up until sunrise, do yourself a favor and take a break to enjoy it. This isn't a romanticization of exhaustion, but a reminder that it's okay fall off the wagon of a good night's rest. If nightmares keep slumber at bay, day-dream about the future you are working towards when sacrificing sleep.
It's tough now, but we're over half-way done with this semester, and soon enough responsibility will release it's ransom on your ability to rest. For the time being, push yourself and don't give up. Work hard, and sleep harder when the opportunity arises. Love yourself, and love this life that you see so much of. It will get better.
Sincerely,
Yet another sleep-deprived college student
