I was young, and I still am conflicted of whether I ever truly loved you, but one thing I do remember and know for sure is the pain that I felt knowing that I wasn’t enough in that moment as you tore me apart in my teenage years. I do not hate you, although I have wanted to for a long time. I realize that you were incapable of loving me or anyone for that matter as you felt the need to win the girl you cheated on me with only to do the same to her. Some days, I wonder still why you ever let me feel for you if you knew you never cared, but we live in a heartless world and the lesson that you taught me may have wrecked my trust in the world for a while but I am grateful to you. You not only showed me the vile nature in people, but also showed me that I am stronger than I ever thought that I was. I felt dependent on other people, but being hurt by you showed me my inner strength rather than the strength of my friends around me. My inner strength gave me the power to fight for my dreams.

Thank you, not for hurting me in a sense, but for showing me that I am more than you ever were worthy to have. That my heart needed someone that could reciprocate my feelings and that was never you. I lost so much of my time due to you, but I am happy that without you and because of my exploration of myself while needing to repair my own heart that I was able to find myself. I left to Lander, and I found myself, the happiest part of me and if I had been with you, I would’ve stayed and never known all that was in store for me. I am thankful that I now have my best friends, my boyfriend who makes me the happiest woman alive and the chance to express myself, and not hide while around you. I am a better person because I am not with you, and I am proud to wear my pain and know that I have become a better person because you hurt me, and knowing that gives me strength. So here’s the truth the letter that has been stuck in my head for three years, thank you for letting me be free. I am finally happy so thank you for not continuing to hold me back.