Hey you,

It sure has been a long time since I got the chance to see your face in person. Looking at a photo is no where close to the same thing, and it really tears me up inside. I can look at a photo all day long, yet I can't reach through and feel the rough edges of your face, the way your eyes light up when I tell one of my bad jokes again, yet you seem to love it anyway. I can't run my hands through your hair like I used to, and I most certainly can't fill your face with attack kisses.

It's been a rough go since you left, and although I seem to look the same to everyone else, no one can read my thoughts or emotions, and that is how I keep it all together. Because if I couldn't keep it together, then everyone would see my unfiltered side that's not so pretty. The sleepless nights, dreading to work, always avoiding friends by saying that I'm "busy" when I'm just sitting at home crying until I have no more tears left.

My ugly side.

My reality.

You know there are a few people who knew who I was when I was around you, and they definitely know that I'm no longer the same, which probably makes sense that I barely see them. Slowly over the years, my list of friends has begun to deteriorate, as if the way I am now is more of a burden on them, than to be supportive through it all.

Today that's all going to change.

See, you've taught me a lot, without even being near me anymore. I've learned how to move on, even if it hurts like hell. I've learned that I am the only person who can truly lift myself up, and the only person who can grow myself into someone I want to be. I've turned my sorrows into success, and even if I have days where you're all I think about, I remember where I once was, and look at where I am now. I may have lost a lot, but I've also gained more than I would have if I had continued to sit on the couch moping around like a lost puppy.

You're never forgotten, but now is the time that I need to move on, and to think about myself for once. Now is the time where I say Goodbye until we meet again...if we meet again.

Sincerely

Your love.