It's kind of funny, this weird relationship all 800 of us have formed. It's not a very close one. Actually, I wouldn't greet most of you in passing. But at the same time, a lot of you have become a part of my everyday life. There's that girl I pass in the hall, whose outfit always makes me feel inferior. There's the one couple who I've really been rooting for since they began. Then, there's that guy in my english class who I've always had a thing for, even though he barely knows my name. There are so many people here and I feel like I haven't learned a thing about any of them.
Now, as I pack for college, I realize I'm going to miss you guys. Isn't that funny? I never bothered to learn your stories. I never thought much about your lives or ambitions or futures. I know that sounds a bit cold, but to be fair none of you really thought about me either. I do wonder who I was in your day, though. The loud girl you passed on your way to class? The girl who was always telling a joke or laughing at one? The crazy girl who always had a cause to fight about? Or, worse, a passing face that you never even noticed?
Now that it's all over, I wonder about so many things I can't ask about. I mean maybe I'll see a few of you during breaks, in passing. I'll notice whether you look healthy or sad or happy. But I'll truly wonder if you're doing okay in college. I'll wonder if going out-of-state is all you hoped it would be, or if any of you decided living at home and commuting wasn't your greatest idea. Odds are I'll never ask any of you about any of these things, but I'll wonder.
Some people like to unfriend and unfollow after graduation but I'll likely do the opposite. I know I will browse some of your social media, just to see how you're doing. I hope some of you wonder about me, too. Because us wondering about each other is amazing. If I remember who I thought you were enough to wonder, it makes it all real. It means that you were an actual presence in my life, no matter how small. It means we all lived this part of life together. We all walked these halls together. We all complained about the heat and the teachers and the homework. Then, we all graduated and together we wondered what the future would bring for all of us.
For a few years, we did so many things together. We aren't necessarily friends but we share inside jokes and lived through stories no one else can tell. Now, hopefully, we wonder together. It's the last thing left for us to share. No matter how distant we all are, we have formed this funny, weird relationship. One that is incredibly special. One that cannot be duplicated, not exactly.
Best of Wishes to You All,
Your Former Classmate
