I've Figured Out "Why Me"

I've Figured Out "Why Me"

God says: “The reason why some people have turned against you and walked away from you without reason, has nothing to do with you. It is because I have removed them from your life. They cannot go where I am taking you next.”

Many times I have cried out in anguish, “why me God?!” Confused, hurt, frustrated. I have done everything you’ve asked of me God! I strive so hard to do what’s right by you. Where is my reward and why has my fairy tale ending not yet come..

It’s not something I’m proud of, putting doubt in Gods plan for me, but I have been hurt. I have been cheated, lied to, abandoned, and laughed at because of my faith. There is only so much hurt one can take before getting discouraged. Within this last month I have experienced heart break, heck this last week, but I think I’ve figured out why.

These trials and tribulations benefit me. They make me stronger, more eager, and more kind. Even if it’s not immediate, even if I fail to recognize their complexity at the time, these sufferings better me, but that is not the dominant reason “why me.” The dominant reason lies within my oppressor. I am with the Lord, they can not take my strength from him away. God knows this. God allows them to test me because my oppressor needs to see my strength more than I do. They need to know that they can not make me crumble. They need to see my light shine, and ponder what it is that makes me this way. So that someday, probably not today, but someday, they will think of me and think, I want to shine that way. I want to change. I want to be better. I inspire them, and lead them to Christ, that is “why me”. It’s within the scriptures.

God says: “The reason why some people have turned against you and walked away from you without reason, has nothing to do with you. It is because I have removed them from your life. They cannot go where I am taking you next.” I live by this quote, and every time I am knocked down it lifts me right back up, even taller than before. It’s a friendly reminder to keep moving and never look back. Greater is coming. So, no my darling, you have done nothing wrong, in fact you have done everything right. God chose this struggle to bring you closer to him, and God chose this struggle so that you may be a pivotal person in your oppressors’ life. He has chosen you to set an example for his child. To cause them take a step back to evaluate the ways in which they’re living, and just how beautiful is that?

Now I’m not saying just because the ultimate end is good that the pain hurts any less, but God never said it would be easy.Iin fact he admits that we will be put down because of his name, but he also tells us it would be worth it. Embrace your suffering, and find strength in the Lord. “Blessed are you when people abuse you and persecute you and speak all kinds of calumny against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward will be great in heaven” Matthew 5:11-12. So rejoice the next time someone hurts you, or calls you names because of him because you are doing his will. Pray for them that they may see, and seek change, because after all isn’t that why we’re here? To help our brothers and sisters make it to his kingdom, Gods kingdom. We are on a mission to bring the whole world.

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My Faith Is What Sparked My Interested In Socialist Politics

Jesus abhorred the greedy and had an unprecedented amount of compassion, and that's why I'm a socialist.

If you couldn’t tell by my name, I’m Irish, which also probably implies that I was raised Catholic. And indeed, I was. I was baptized, received the Eucharist and reconciliation, confirmed, and able to recite nearly every part of a typical Mass. Plus, I go to the largest Catholic university in the United States, DePaul University here in Chicago, a city with a rich history of Catholic Irishmen.

So, yeah, I guess you can say I’m the quasi-stereotype of the typical Catholic Irishman from Chicago, but one fact about me that isn’t that much of a stereotype, aside from that I’m more Chinese than Irish, is that I credit Catholicism for making me a socialist.

Before I go on, let me just say that if you don’t really know me, then that sentence seems shocking for the “socialist” part. But if you know my admiration for Bernie Sanders and his ability to bring socialism into mainstream politics, then you might be as equally as surprised, except more at the “Catholic” part.

The whole idea of Christ’s teachings ultimately reflects the meaning of socialism.

Socialism is the liberation of all oppressed peoples and the mass organizing of people to rightfully decide affairs that affect the population as a whole. It’s seen in many of the Ten Commandments. Thou shalt not kill, not bear false witness against thy neighbor, and so on. It’s seen in the Beatitudes. “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness: for they will be filled.” “Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward in heaven is great, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.”

It’s even seen in Jesus’s words. In Matthew 19:21, Jesus said: “If you will be perfect, go and sell that you have, and give to the poor, and you shall have treasure in heaven: and come and follow Me.”

Matthew 15:32 recalls Jesus as having “compassion on the multitude, because they continue with [him] now three days, and have nothing to eat: and I will not send them away fasting, lest they faint in the way.”

Though this is not to say that Jesus was a socialist, it is to say that for me, faith is important in my life because without it, I would not be as exposed to the damning inequalities of the world than I have been before.

We are seeing racism, classism, sexism, and all other forms of oppression bleeding into normalcy once again, all thanks to capitalists that abuse their power and exploit the working class for their own personal benefit.

Christ reflects on this evil in Mark 10:25: “It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God.”

It is often the case where socialism, and even more left ideologies and religion do not get along. In fact, it is a religion that most people in socialist causes see as an evil in itself, for it gives opponents on the right a scapegoat for their evils.

I personally disagree that religion is the root of that evil. I believe that even though religion has caused many atrocities against humankind throughout history, it goes without saying that the words of Christ offer good incentives to support socialist politics and views of the like.

This is not me trying to convince you to convert to Christianity, but it is me pointing out that faith can be utilized for the good in a world in which it has been used for the bad.

Christ’s compassion, empathy, and call for others to stand up to injustice is something that all people should see as valuable advice. There is no logic in using the rhetoric of Christ to excuse behavior that has caused far too many people to be obliterated from the Earth. For as the Golden Rule states, “do unto others as you want to be treated.”

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Project Israel: Part Two


I am conquered.

My mind, heart, and soul are incense before you.

Placed on the altar, are all my actions.

There my head hits the floor, knees press the ground,

Do I dare look up at You?

So, I stare behind, shadow below.

O’ Light above,

Weighing down upon me.

I am conquered.

Battle in the Heavens!

I am servant to both armies!

I am a general for Lucifer, I am a prince of Christ!

Does this please you: fallen below?

Father Above?

Such a lost thought, back & forth, between Death and Life.

I am conquered.

Weaned, bent, twisted by my own hand?

O’ Sin, are you my master?

By God’s Grace, no!

Yet it was I who stripped You, we struck You!

Strip me, strike me!

You gave me keys to the kingdom.

I threw my heart to the fire.

O’ Sin,

I am yours—all of me.

All my wretchedness is yours.

I am con—No!

O’ Jesus!

I am yours—all of me.

All my wretchedness is yours!

Mercy Maker, Death Defiler, Grace Giver!

Cover me with all!

It is all far more than enough!

Victory is at hand!

I am conquered.

—Drew Seitz


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