Growing up, I was always the kid that everyone went to for homework questions. I was the only child out of my two siblings that had their life together when it came to school work (Hannah and Ali, I love you but you can be a mess sometimes). I always had a plan, and I always stuck to my schedule. I was on top of it all, and my life was pretty much a well oiled machine. Now that I'm older, I can definitely say that my life has gotten more complicated and I am not the same as how I used to be. I make rash decisions and even though I try to plan out my life, it doesn't always go accordingly. Back then, if something didn't go my way I would be terrified of the outcome. I was never the "go with the flow" type of person. Now, I'm a sophomore in college, and I am here to tell you that it's completely okay to not have it all figured out.
Life is crazy. It's filled with goodness, awfulness, fun, laughs, and love. Sometimes life throws something at you that you can't dodge even if you tried, and I'm here to tell you to embrace that. Going in to my freshman year, I was a biology major. I was excited to start my classes, despite how hard everyone told me they were going to be. The first semester came and went, and then I began second semester and figured out that I hated being a biology major. Absolutely hated it. Since I planned on going in to medicine since I was five years old, you can imagine how I felt when I realized I no longer felt the passion to pursue a profession in the medical field. I was afraid to change my major, but I took the plunge and I've never been happier.
My point is that you can change things in your life and it won't completely fall apart. Ask me if I thought that was true a year or two ago and I would have disagreed, but now I know that it's okay to not have a handle on things 24/7. I don't know what's going to happen to me tomorrow or the next day or three months from now, but I am excited to live my life and find out. Instead of obsessing over every detail, I have learned to focus on the bigger picture and really try to accept things as they are. Life is full of maybes, and it's hard to accept the fact that something might not go the way you want it to, but it's important to try your best to accept it. We're young, and we have plenty of room for error. We will make mistakes and that's okay. It's how we learn. So when you think that things are taking a turn for the worst, just remember that it's okay to not have it all figured out right now.
