No one chooses to feel sad most of the time. No one asks to be sad. More importantly, no one is content with being sad.
What being sad feels like on the inside goes somewhat like this...
Being sad on the inside is like coming out of your home after a major hurricane and seeing everything destroyed. There feels as if there is no sense of hope and no possible way anything can go back to normal. Your happy to have made it through the storm, but you're devastated at what it has done. You just can't stomach it.
Being sad on the inside is like being confined to a room with a bad sickness. You want to get out of bed and participate in daily routines but you just can't get out of bed. Your body won't let you get out of bed. All you want to do is lay in bed and hopefully get better. You hope tomorrow will be the day.
Being sad on the inside is like looking out of the window on a rainy and dismal day. Your feelings match the weather. None of the animals are coming out, not even the sun. It's raining consistently and the sky remains a dark and mysterious color.
Being sad on the inside is like having a cast on your leg. You want to go at the same speed as everyone else but you physical restrictions disagree with you. You try and catch up and fight through the pain but no matter what, you just can't.
Being sad on the inside is like speeding on the highway. Your going so fast that your heart is racing and your adrenaline is pumping. You don't know why you're getting so nervous but you just do.
Being sad on the inside is like getting called out of class by the teacher. Your heart sinks because your brain automatically assumes your in trouble. You can't help but feel how your stomach is in your feet and your heart is where your stomach should be. You don't know what you did wrong.
Being sad on the inside is like dropping your laptop in water. You don't know why bad things happen to good people. They just do.
My point being is that sadness can be hopeless, debilitating, dark, confusing, and riddled with anxiety.
Being sad occasionally or having a prolonged sadness (aka depression) isn't treated with the same understanding as all of these physical attributes listed above. People assume that someone who is sad can just get over it or avoid it.
Except the thing is, sadness can't just be avoided or pushed away. For whatever reason, it's just there.
That's the problem, it's just there.
