You know those moments when someone makes you mad about something so minute and you know it shouldn't matter so much, but it still eats at you? I feel those moments every day. I would definitely say that the little things bother me the most. I overthink too much and I take things to heart. Even when in certain situations where I'm not the one to blame, I still think it's my fault when I did absolutely nothing wrong.

Everyone handles the way they react to things differently and to be honest, I don't like that I get upset over the little things. Why does it matter? Will this change my life drastically? Probably not. That's what I have to ask myself over and over again. If I say something in a different tone, I start thinking that the other person thinks I'm being rude or snapping at them. I feel the need to apologize when I probably shouldn't. I'm constantly trying to make sure I don't say the wrong thing, but we all make mistakes.

I'm a person who feels everything emotionally. I'm sensitive. I wouldn't say I'm a people pleaser, but it does feel nice when you hear someone say, "My friends think you're nice" or "my parents like you." To me, that feels like an accomplishment. I feel like I did my soul good. When it's something negative, it's the like the world is ending.

I don't go out of my way to please people, I just do things because I want to. I'm a nice person because that's just my personality. My parents raised me to be kind and to always be respectful. So if I do something wrong by accident or if I say something that might come off as rude without meaning to, I think about those moments for a long time. I shame myself for going against my morals, for being unkind. It just bothers me. I feel like my brain is wired to punish itself.

In life, no matter what you do or say, whether it's good or bad, people are going to have something to say. They're going to pass judgment, so those little comments are so small compared to everything else in the world. I will continue being the nice person that I am. The person who is too sensitive. The person who takes things to heart. The most I can do is try and care a little less about what others say.

Here is a quote I recently stumbled on and it really resonated with me:

"Don’t take anything personally. Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering." - Don Miguel Ruiz. The Four Agreements: A Practical Guide to Personal Freedom