Have you ever felt that at times you may seem heartless?
That's not the case at all, though. You've probably just grown over time to have no patience for things that seem unimportant to you.
Once a certain occurrence in your life happens way more than expected or needed, there comes a point where you find yourself emotionless.
It took me 21 years to realize how to focus purely on myself; to not allow anyone or anything hold me back. I wish this realization came to me earlier in life, but its best to have this realization in your college years; when you really start to grow and find your true self.
How did I realize I needed to be selfish? Well, it definitely was something that built over time. It could've been because of my yet again poor choice in a guy, a parent falling hard into alcohol addiction/drug abuse, a step-father walking in and out as he pleased, a best friend going through phases of giving me the silent treatment for no apparent reason.
As I look back at how difficult those times were, and as much as it might sting to replay the bad memories, those times remind me of why I am who I am, today.
Those bad times taught me a lot. Especially because they would occur more than once, and way more than twice. It was like being retaught the same lesson over and over again until I could ace the test and better myself.
My version of getting an A on this life test was to realize that you cannot control one's destiny, only yours. It definitely wasn't going to be easy.
What have I learn from this?
I now know how to worry about myself. You really have no control over the people in your life and what they do. No matter how bad it hurts, you move on. If you don't, these things will suck you in a black hole and you'll find yourself seriously trapped.
The people who complain the most about the little things, you'll learn to have no time for. Stay focused on yourself. (Yourself is the keyword here)
Not many people actually are there for you. Not many actually care. It will become easier and easier to let people go one by one. Just another finger to count on your hand.
Always put yourself first before getting involved in a situation that may be damaging to you. You decide how you want to live your life. Make the change with confidence and leave the negativity behind. In a few years from now, you will thank yourself.
You will no longer sweat the small stuff. EVER.
If people think you are being harsh, you know deep down what you are doing and why. That is all that matters. If someone cannot understand that, you do not need them.
Become a selfish person, for your own person, in the best way possible. It's one of the best things you could ever do for yourself if you ever find that you are in a place where you're not living your life in a healthy way.
