Hope is All You Really Need

Hope is All You Really Need

Morningside College

Suicide does not get rid of the depression it just passes it on to someone else.

Everyday is hard. I get that believe me I really do understand when you say you want to end your life. But, don't you understand that is not the answer? Suicide is permanent, no turning time back or getting a second chance. Once, you commit suicide its over, your life is over. So, where does that leave everyone else in your life? Your parents and friends are gonna think they caused it and random people that you maybe met once or twice are gonna think about you are random times and wish that they would have tried to help you.

Sometimes you do not give hints. Everyone always says you should have seen the signs and hints they left you. Well sometimes its just in an instant you decide your life is no longer worth saving, and that you are better off not breathing. I have dealt with depression in so many different ways; I suffer from it and my best friend tried to kill herself. Suicide is not the answer and you should always ask for help.

The hardest thing I have ever done in my life, was finding my best friend who tried to commit suicide. She was so out of it and I just could not believe that my best friend would want to end her own life.

We grew up together. Planning out our lives, saying you be in my wedding and I’ll be in your wedding. Our kids would grow up together just like we did. We grew up together, but in that moment I felt like I didn’t even know her. How could the person I spent everyday with for years just one day decide to give up without so much as a warning.

We had so many plans. We wanted to travel the world. Go to all fifty states and then take on the rest of the world together. We had so many plans and in that moment and I felt like my whole world was collapsing and I no longer had plans or thoughts about my life. I felt like it was all being taken away from me, and I had no say and no way to stop it.

She is my person she will always be my person. People always say they have a person and think they know what it means. I always had said she was my person for years before this happened. But, in this moment when I watched her get life flighted, I knew that she was my person and I could not lose her.

Depression. Unless you have dealt with it personally, or know a close friend/family member who has dealt with it, you really have no idea what people with depression are going through. My best friend tried to kill herself. I have battled depression for as long as I can remember. Some days are good while others are not.

Hope. Its hard to have when you feel like your whole world is crashing down around you. Somedays are good others are bad. But in your deepest moments you find that one thing that gives you hope and you hold on to it. Remember that one day you will be happy again. It just may take some time.

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5 Perks Of Having A Long-Distance Best Friend

The best kind of long-distance relationship.

Sometimes, people get annoyed when girls refer to multiple people as their "best friend," but they don't understand. We have different types of best friends. There's the going out together best friend, the see each other everyday best friend and the constant, low maintenance best friend.

While I'm lucky enough to have two out of the three at the same school as me, my "low maintenance" best friend goes to college six hours from Baton Rouge.

This type of friend is special because no matter how long you go without talking or seeing each other, you're always insanely close. Even though I miss her daily, having a long-distance best friend has its perks. Here are just a few of them...

1. Getting to see each other is a special event.

Sometimes when you see someone all the time, you take that person and their friendship for granted. When you don't get to see one of your favorite people very often, the times when you're together are truly appreciated.

2. You always have someone to give unbiased advice.

This person knows you best, but they probably don't know the people you're telling them about, so they can give you better advice than anyone else.

3. You always have someone to text and FaceTime.

While there may be hundreds of miles between you, they're also just a phone call away. You know they'll always be there for you even when they can't physically be there.

4. You can plan fun trips to visit each other.

When you can visit each other, you get to meet the people you've heard so much about and experience all the places they love. You get to have your own college experience and, sometimes, theirs, too.

5. You know they will always be a part of your life.

If you can survive going to school in different states, you've both proven that your friendship will last forever. You both care enough to make time for the other in the midst of exams, social events, and homework.

The long-distance best friend is a forever friend. While I wish I could see mine more, I wouldn't trade her for anything.

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Goodbye To The Boy Who Sexually Assaulted Me, You Can Never Hurt Me Again

In 30 minutes you turned my life around.


*Content Warning: Sexual Assault*

You destroyed me.

You took away my innocence.

You were able to take away my dreams and aspirations.

You were able to shut me down in ways I didn't know to be possible.

In 30 minutes you turned my life around.

Broken trust, that is what you left me with. A broken sense of stability and love. Sometimes I sit and wonder why you thought it was okay to take advantage of me? Why it was okay to hit, and belittle me? You had me left feeling foreign to my own body.

But then I realize it is not my fault, it is yours. This is not a cry for help or an avenue to get attention this is me raising awareness that not only did you hurt me but others are experiencing the same thing you put me through.

My innocence was taken by you without consent. I sat in my room for hours after that night thinking of ways to end the life I was given. I spent countless nights waking up screaming with tears rushing down my face. I spent the majority of my future relationships scared of ever letting myself feel again. I was forced to take avenues of help like therapy appointments and trying different depression medicines. All of this resulted from the 30 minutes you could not control yourself.

Yes, you destroyed me. But now I'm stronger than ever, you will never be able to hurt me again.

With all of the pain and endless nights of contemplating my reason to live, I found strength, I found a way to share my voice and help others experiencing this pain. I am stronger now than I ever thought possible.

I wake up every day now appreciating the things in life that matter most to me, like the love my boyfriend has for me, the amazing family I am blessed with, and the amazing friends that helped me through this experience. I have learned that fighting for my life was worth it and I was not going to let you take that away from me.

I will not stop sharing my story, I have learned that sharing my experiences of sexual assault has let others feel less alone in the scary process that you, unfortunately, put me through. What you did to me was not okay. But through this, I have understood and realized my worth in this crazy rollercoaster we call life.

I found strength in the moments you made me the weakest, and I'm no longer looking back.

I have hope that other survivors will understand that their life is just as valuable. There is a bigger fight for happiness and finding it is not always the easiest but the journey getting there is worth it.

You ARE strong.

You ARE worth it.

It's NOT your fault.

You're NOT alone.

If you or someone you know is experiencing suicidal thoughts, call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline — 1-800-273-8255

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