You can't make me feel guilty or low for what I did in high school.

Or my past at all for that matter. I've made mistakes, yes. The difference between who I was when I made the mistake and now is that I'm an adult. I'll own up to my mistakes. If I hurt you I will sit you down, say sorry, and mean it from the bottom of my heart. With that being said there is a line. Yes taking responsibility is a part of growing up and acting like an adult but that's not all it takes to be an adult. The other part is to know when someone deserves an apology, when you actually need to give it out. My apologies mean something. I don't hand them out like M&Ms. If I give you an apology it won't be because you think you deserve one. In the instance you actually deserve one I'll try twice to apologize. If you choose to listen great. If you choose not to listen fine. Being an adult means knowing you can't force other people to grow up. Sara Barrellias said it best I won't write you a love song cause you want one. It's the same with apologies. Unless I know I did something wrong I won't apologize. I won't apologize for something I didn't do or because you're angry at me over a rumor. I'll apologize if I made an actual mistake. In high school when someone threw a mistake I made back in my face I would've lost my cool. I'd scream and curse and threaten people. Looking back now I simply couldn't control my anger but I'm not that girl anymore. I'm not in high school anymore. I won't yell every curse word I know when you call me out for something I've done in my past. I won't get in your face and make a scene. I've come to terms with my past. Which means when you try to throw it in my face, it won't keep me up at night. I won't scream at you. I won't fight you. I'll get angry don't get me wrong, It's frustrating that people can sometimes only chalk you up to your past mistakes. However I can recognize now that if your bringing up my past it's because I'm not doing anything wrong in the present. You simply need a reason to tear me down. The words do sting, I won't lie. I hate when people hash up those old wounds. But as an adult I know why you're saying what you are and I know that I AM NOT that girl anymore. I know when I look in the mirror that I've grown from who I was in high school. So go ahead bring up my past, try to tear me down and make me angry. Everyone copes differently and you need to do whatever is going to make you feel better. If tearing me down makes you feel better so be it. But don't be surprised when I don't stoop to your level because whether you like it or not high school is over.